show me yes
show me no
I don't know
not going to
tired of weeping
Changing Woman: Poems 2007 - 2016
Kayla used to be a priestess of Aphrodite, but she was such a bitch - all those lessons in love, including jealousy, heartache, misery, and despair. Now she is the Priestess of Laphrodite, Goddess of the Belly laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, but as far as Kayla was concerned, it's also the best lube. Reflecting a time of questing and questioning for our Baby Crone, she changes careers, discovers online dating, and fuels her passion for blogging.
Is that you'll never cross off the whole list
There's always one more thing to do
Some mystery to solve, a cosmic clue
Every hair needs to be neatly in place
Not a trace of dust or mess in my space
All the dishes done, and the laundry too
Every weed pulled, bills paid, nothing due
Books all proofread, not a single mistake
Everyone thinks you're authentic, but feel like a fake
The occasional smile after a “How are you?”
Not revealing the truth, if they only knew
The depth of my anxiety, how I drown in fear
The shaking of my heart as I hold back my tears
Not thinking that I'm good enough, falling short
Making long-term plans, only then to abort
Business plans, projects, good intentions
So many ideas, too many to mention
Many a million-dollar idea not realized
Many a cherished dream that once I prized
This was compassion, offering the first look to the random gentleman who came down the path, making eye contact, smiling, sharing whispers of ancient secrets. Self-compassion - taking in the sun and the moon's energy in Libra straight into my heart, my solar plexus. Feeling my Libra relationships, as I smiled and shared my childlike Joy with each person.
Marianne had tears in her eyes, Sarah grinned ear-to-ear, and Catherine gave me a warm hug. I felt loved and appreciated. I'm so glad I brought them to share and not just for myself. feeling that Venus aspect of self-love, self-care.
I made sure everyone got a turn, but somehow one participant slipped in without me seeing him. This Eclipse will not be seen in North America again until 2039. Truly a Celestial experience. I felt humbled, in awe, and privileged.