May 3, 2023
People I Carry Wherever I Go
I have my mother's hands and my father's fingernails, the pale half moons on my thumbs always make me think of him. I carry my daughter low in my sacrum, riding low on my hip like when she would cling to me as a toddler, always one hand free to carry the groceries. I can feel my grandfather in my lungs with every cough, every wheeze. Sometimes I feel my grandmother in my knees
While of course I carry my husband in my heart, he's also in my eyes and ears, the ways I perceive the day, what perspective to share, story to elaborate over dinner, some nuance, old joke, fond memory, any way to make a long story longer.
Everyday this week, even right now, I'm compelled to check my phone, waiting for the text, waiting for the call. I'm carrying Paul as well as Barb and Amber.
This coming new moon is my sister-in-law Carol's memorial. I carry the memory of touching her feet as she passed, the sounds of niece Wendy sobbing, the cool calm of the nurse as she continued to switch off the machines.
I have a litany of lovers that I say when I can't sleep, a rosary of remembrance. I carry all of their names, and my pockets are deep.
April 26, 2023
April 19, 2023
Four Elements Cleanse
Four Elements Cleanse
Start by filing a small glass jar or ceramic jar with kosher salt, Epsom salts, borax or plain table salt.You can add an aromatherapy oil like lavender or bergamot. Shake it well. Hold it in your hands. Infusing it with your intention by saying:
Salt of the earth.
I know my self worth
Crystal transmission
Help me with this transition
Take a pinch and sprinkle it into each corner of the room. Toss some over your left shoulder for good luck. You can also place rose quartz, silver dimes, or healing dirt in the corners, anything representing the earth and its' ability to transform on the physical plane.
Next, sprinkle holy water in each corner to clear emotions. This can be found online, at your local church, or make your own by leaving a crystal or glass bowl outside under the new moon or the full moon for 3 days. Holy water can be infused with crystals, flower petals, and/or aromatherapy oils, as well as your good intentions. Add photographs, power words, or tarot cards placed either on the top or bottom of the bowl. Use it in self-blessing rituals too. Affirm out loud:
Sacred water
Sacred feelings
Release old emotions
For sacred healing
For the element of air, many folks like to burn sage, cedar or pine for their cleansing properties for both the mental and spiritual planes. If you do not like smoke in your dwellings, you can grind the herbs or do pinches of tobacco in the corners. Alternatively, you can use a feather or a (fairy) feather duster to bless the corners. Whisper the words:
With every inhale
I breathe in relief
With every exhale
I breathe out release
For the element of fire, symbolic of your life force and energy, pick a new candle in a color that speaks to you on a chakra level, beeswax preferred. Take an athame (ritual knife) or just a ballpoint pen and carve from bottom to top what is being released from this space or your life as the candle burns it away.
Then carve from the top to the bottom what you're inviting in as the candle burns down. Walk around the room and poke in the four directions. If you do not want to light candles, use a wand or sacred broom to sweep out the energy from each corner.
Sacred Fire
Come and cleanse
Release the old
And begin again
Stand in the center or power spot of the room. Bless yourself with the four elements. Say:
In the name of the Maiden, the Mother and the Crone
I'm here by myself, but I'm never alone
So the ritual is complete
And I am blessed from my head to my feet
Blessed be!
April 12, 2023
Love Each Other
Love Each Other
I want us to love "arch" other
As you would say
One day at a time
And string them together
Like the precious things they are
Instead of trying too hard
Or expecting too much
Please don't always expect me
To always be good and kind
There will be times when
I will be hard to understand
But it's only because if
It's that time of the month
Or one of my moods
Not that I loved you less
Please remember that
I loved you always
April 5, 2023
Baby Crone's Tarot Playbook
Now available in hardcover!
March 29, 2023
Cosmic Giggles
Cosmic Giggles
Chuckling at the traffic light
Engagement ring in the sunlight
Catches it just so
I'm in my own private disco
Opening my eyes
To the morning surprise
Throat throbbing with delight
Hummingbirds ruby red flight
Best part of when I owned a cafe
Was spinning that mirror ball every day
Prisms scattered across the ceiling
Espresso-ing a glittery feeling
And by the way,
Did you know
Broken crystals
Cast the most rainbows
So put your violet fairy wings
Hover, sip and sway
And when the light is right
Just slip away
March 22, 2023
Chime
If I had known back then - Ada Limon
The bell rings three times. Notice
How long until the last note
Declines
Would I have got that tattoo
Or the other
Bruises, stretch marks
Still have been a mom
Or just a housemate, Tia, aunt
Friend from long ago
Felt this close to you
Dying among your books
A few of mine
I would have said yes sooner,
As in, get it over with
Yank off the Band-Aid
Take off the blindfold
Disillusioned
Once
The bell rings
Two times
Follow the chime
Follow the
Chime