Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.
- Carl Jung
As a hypnotherapist, one of my favorite sessions is doing past life regressions. Whether one believes in past lives or not, these sessions are always profound, insightful, and deeply healing. In my practice over the last fifteen years, I have done four dozen or so past life regressions. These have been for folks to understand current life patterns, such as overspending or overeating; to find forgiveness for their childhood abuser; or to release feelings of karmic debt from failed relationships. Personally, I have worked with other practitioners and have experienced three past lives (plus a womb regression). Here is the most recent one.
Intention: What would be beneficial for me now in my healing practice? Affirmation: I will say yes to giving my gift this lifetime.
My colleague had me get comfortable on the massage table. We started with some deep breathing and a basic relaxation technique. Then she counted down from ten to one, with the instruction to discover in my mind's eye a safe, comfortable place to begin today's journey. I go into trance extremely easily and always find it quite pleasant. I felt very curious, full of wonder about what I might discover today.
I found myself imagining being in my backyard on a warm spring afternoon. The sun was shining, I could smell the jasmine, and both the cats were keeping me good company. I noticed the sounds of hummingbird wings, the neighbors off in the distance, and I felt very safe and secure. I moved a statue of Kuan Yin over to the power corner of the garden and took a moment to pay tribute to the goddess of healing and compassion. Kuan Yin is often depicted with her head tilted to one side, in order to hear the cries of suffering from humankind. I took a moment to reflect on all the deep listening I do. I prayed that they always felt my office to be a sanctuary to release their woes and to find peace.
Now the guide led me through a second countdown, and I felt as if I was traveling through time. It was like flipping through fifty years of National Geographics. I saw far-off places, an array of faces, all flashing before my eyes in quick succession.
At zero, she had me simply look at my feet. Nex,t my clothes, then the surroundings, taking in the sights, the sounds, the smell. All the colors and textures, even the tastes. I knew the time of day, the season, even the year in incredible detail. I was in China, about the year 500 a.d, and it was not just late summer, but also that somehow I was running late.
I looked down at my tiny feet, conscious that I was wearing white pants and a blue shirt. At first, I felt genderless, then I was aware that I was a 13-year-old girl. My feet were hurting, as were my shoulders. I noticed the way the smooth wooden yoke fit across my neck, the way my hands balanced the buckets, which were filled not with water but an assortment of herbs and mushrooms. Walking back to the compound, mindful of the dust and the smell of my own sweat, I stopped at a small hut to gather up supplies.
Next, I moved through the compound. I went from room to room doing my honorable task for each of my aunties - taking off the tight bindings and bathing their feet with fresh spring water and herbs. The smell is incredible, the twisted toes forced into tiny shoes. Again and again, the admonishment to keep the secret. I am neither royal nor a peasant, so my feet are not as tightly bound. My role is to perpetuate this tradition. I struggle to find the sacred in the mundane. I cleanse and purify, applying herbs as salves and poultices, massaging calves to encourage blood flow before reapplying the restrictive bindings.
The practitioner had me fast-forward. Now I am married, and somehow I recognize my husband as my brother in modern life. Bunches of herbs dry in the rafters, and hang in pouches along the wall. I am well versed in herbs for infertility as well as for inducing menses, the only contraceptive of the time. I myself am infertile, and I feel cursed, yet blessed, that my husband remains by my side.
I see myself stirring up salves, unguents, and lotions. I continue to tend to the ladies and see babies being born between my hands. Sometimes they are stillborn, and I take their tiny bodies down to a special burial place at Kuan Yin's temple. These are my spirit children. I know my task is to guide their spirits in the most sacred of ways. And always, keep it secret, secret, secret.
Now the guide gently guides me to the moment of my death. I am forty years old, surrounded by nieces and nephews, always a favorite auntie. I pass quite peacefully, my devotees by my side, surrounded by clay jars sealed with beeswax with wild flowers pressed into them.
The practitioner counted me back to my safe space. Back in the garden, I realize this is where my former cats are buried in the yard. I have intense memories of reading Chinese Folktales as a kid, which I was fascinated by, and Mary Daly in college, her descriptions of Chinese foot binding. More images flash before my eyes, including washing both Jesus and Mary's feet with my hair during Reiki I and II. Then I see my paternal grandmother, Nona Thersa, her gnarled feet and discolored toenails. I briefly experienced the double foot surgery I went through when I was in sixth grade, my feet being deformed by too-tight ice-skates. My Mom had the same surgery at the same time, her feet messed up by wearing shoes much too small due to the poverty she lived in as a child in postwar Sweden. I flash on my brother and the fact that neither of us has biological children. Here was the “aha” moment of seeing (ancestral) patterns.
The practitioner counted me up to this dimension. We spent some time processing the session, then said our goodbyes. The session was so rich and qualitatively different from other hypnosis sessions, the amount of detail and deep knowing feeling is like nothing else I have ever experienced. I hope this sparks your own sense of curiosity and wonder.
(Excerpt from Laphrodite's Guide to Mindful Menopause or the Adventures of a Baby Crone)


















