The Enchanted World of a Rambling Rose

Something I am struggling with

2012-01-25T08:34:00.000-08:00

Time. I struggle with time. I have never been too interested in making money, but I am incredibly interested in making time - for myself, for my child, and in particular for my lover.

Even getting ready for this weekend, I so wanted to somehow get more done, in particular I wanted to wash my car. I let it go with a sigh as I realized it was more important to tie up some loose ends with clients, clear my desk and my mind for the retreat ahead, and that the dirt could wait.

Still, after dropping Amber off at school I took a few minutes to wipe down the interior, sweep the crumbs off the seats, and shake out the mats. I wanted the car to be pleasant for Chip as we wound our way up to this northern sea shore. I wanted it to be pleasant for me as well.

After picking Chip up at his Mountain View office, he asked me about my morning, and I rattled off all I had accomplished, from cleaning the house and packing to dying my hair. I don't give myself enough credit for I do. I have been aware lately of going and sitting on the deck, closing my eyes in the sun, and just enjoying the garden, rather than working in it. The weeds aren't going anywhere, and the truth is the larger they are the easier to pull.

When homeless folks ask me for spare change, I always want to ask them for some spare time. After all, they're just lounging around all day, don't seem to have anything to do but panhandle, can't they give me some of that?

I find myself struggling to incorporate Chip into my life. Yes, we have good times together, incredibly happy, but I always worry that I am somehow falling behind in other areas of my life. After being single for seven years I became used to filling up my evenings and weekends with work, work and more work, and I feel challenged to relax, let go, and simply play, to simply enjoy our time together for what it is - precious, sweet and precious.

I love spending time by myself, and feel challenged to create this as we merge our lives together. I love spending time with amber, but usually it is doing homework as we don't have weekends together, and she is of the age where she is embarrassed by me in public places. I struggle to find the balance between me time, us time, family time, client time.

This is an opportunity for gratitude when I recognize that Chip is not taking anything away from me, but indeed adding to my life, adding to my joy and happiness, giving me the strength and rejuvenation I need for the rest of the week.

It is an opportunity to enjoy the time with amber, who will be leaving for college in a few short years, and to savor our connection, even if it's just watching a tv show together.

It is an opportunity to have gratitude for being self employed, the ability to set my own schedule, decide which office to work out of, and when I want to work on my business not just at my business.

And it is an opportunity to be grateful for my meditation practice, which was hugely important as I moved through sorrow and grief, and now has the ability to slow down time for me, help me relax and breathe into the moment, and that five minutes by myself can be as refreshing as five hours.

I am reminded of the quote, "There is plenty of time, and every moment counts" as well as my own affirmation that I have plenty to do, and all the time in the world to do it. I am grateful for my ability to prioritize and to be more flexible.

Blessed be.

Aquarius: The Water Bearer

2012-01-21T19:13:00.000-08:00

Aquarius: The Water Bearer
A Transperonal, Fixed Air Sign
Sign of the Revolutionary
Air Image: A Flash of Lightning
Relates to Uranus & The Eleventh House
Soul Purpose: To be innovative, original
and the agent of change
Key Phrase: “I’m Different”

Come, Be Plain With Me

2012-01-18T09:51:00.000-08:00

I complain about this
I complain about that
Weeds in the garden
Hair from the cat

Being really busy
Always on the go
Too many clients
As well as the no shows

I'm looking for attention
Needing validation
Trying to vent
All my frustration

Sometimes I know
I'm just Exaggerating
Sometimes it feels
Just Complicating

Complaining serves no purpose
As far as I can see
I'd rather speak my truth
Kind and gently

Rather than complaining,
I would like it to be
Changing the words to
Come, be plain with me

Let me be plain
Transparent with you
Honor your truth
Let us see this through

Being authentic
Acting compassionately
Actively listening
Come, be plain with me

Come, be plain with me...
Blessed be.

Thoughts on Complaining

2012-01-11T09:44:00.000-08:00

What makes me susceptible to complaining?

Other people complaining and my need to validate their experience leads me to find all the negative tidbits that I have been secretely saving for a bitch session.

What do I really want when I complain?
I really want validation, I want to vent, to release steam like a volcano. I want attention, the tantrum that Carolina described.

What do I generally get in response to complaining?
I get advice I most likely won't take, suggestions that I have thought of myself but have somehow already rejected.

I complain about my mom's complaining.

I complain about Chips lateness without being grateful for the fact that he drives a couple of hours just to spend time with me. My complaining serves no purpose, changes nothing in his behavior, and it can only serve to move me into acceptance, that people have different senses of time, and that we are always synchronized when do connect, not on my agenda, not on his, but on our particular intention to share our lives together.

I complain about Ambers rejection out of fear and a need to assert myself as her parent, my insecurity of not being taken seriously or seen as her real parent as I didn't birth her.

I complain about the house because I feel overwhelmed. What I really want is help. What I need is the acceptance that there will always be something to do, the moment the laundry is done the next load is being made, to enjoy my garden rather than noticing the weeds.

I complain about my website clients because I feel stressed out and unappreciated, I complain about the hours worked but it is my fault for not billing like a lawyer, each email, each conversation.

I complain about not getting paid yet I continue to work with unreliable clients, somehow thinking it's better than nothing.

I want to changemy complaining to:
Come, be plain with me...

What allows me to feel more gratitude

2012-01-07T09:35:00.000-08:00

I am more open to gratitude when I appreciate myself, rather than looking to others to feel validated or secure. I notice appreciating the hot water in the shower, the modern miracle of plumbing, the way the conditioner leaves my hair feeling like silk, the chance to shed the past as it swirls down the drain.

Taking the time each morning to do the simple act of pulling a tarot card, centering myself for a few minutes or an hour, depending on the demands of the day, leaves me feeling in a state of grace that gives me the strength and patience needed to drive in traffic, be kind to a client, negotiate with a teenager.

Reiki has certainly helped stay in a humbled state of deep gratitude, whether praying over my food or touching the feet of my client. In my sessions I go down on my knees, sending the energy through their body, but I visualize I am washing their feet with my hair, anointed them with holy oils, removing the thorns and nails, kissing the wounds until they are healed. Every one of my clients comes to me as a teacher, and in the silent moments I reflect upon the lesson be brought to me today, and I am always surprised when they hand me a check at the end of the session. No, I want to say, I should be paying you...

Learning how to take compliments gracefully, to say thank you genuinely, to send get well cards or simply hold someone in my thoughts, visualizing an infinity loop of energy connecting our hearts, keeps me open to gratitude.

A friend of mine posts her gratitude journal on facebook. This keeps me open, allows me to pause and reflect, to leave inhere comment box my own awareness of personal blessings, of choosing to look at life as positive. It is an antidote to all the postings about illness and war, outrage and despair that cycle across my screen.

Blessed be,

Adventures in Maui 3: West Side

2012-01-04T16:30:00.000-08:00

Our west side adventures in Maui started out pretty slow for me. After the long drive the day before from Hana, both my hands had broken out into hives from the medication I am on, which makes my skin ultra photo sensitive. While Chip went snorkeling, I hung out at the Lokelani condo, finished reading my second novel, checking out The Ultimate Maui and playing on the computer.

Thursday we cruised into Lahaina town, which reminded me much of Key West. Bustling, full of color and life, a magnificent Banyan Tree making up a wondrous playground and welcomed shade by the yacht harbor. We went whale watching, seeing close to a dozen whales, distant flumes of water and the occasional tail. Afterwards we stopped at The Cool Cat for salads, meandering down Front Street afterwards to peruse the art galleries before going home to make spinach cheese raviolis in a pesto sauce.

The next day was my one of only my swims in the ocean, as our private beach was still in the shade early in the morning. Donning on Chips UV protecting shirt and goggles, I attempted underwater photography but it was much to murky. While he went oft snorkel more distant and clearer reefs, I bobbed up and down on a friendly sandbar, avoiding sea urchins while trying to capture good photos of waves.

Later we drove up to Kapalu and hiked the oceanic trail. First we encountered the Dragons Teeth, fierce juts of lava that threatened to swallow the ocean. Much to my surprise, I also found a labyrinth had been created on one of the clearings. While Chip took photos of the landscape, I did a walking meditation, another incredibly sacred and awe-inspiring time on this trip. We hiked further along the coast line, but feeling overly hot and weary I sat by the tide pools while Chip continued further on. I saw sea turtle come to the ocean surface several times, more gratifying than the whale watching, and took furtive pics of a fisherman who just delighted me for no particular reason. At sunset we stopped at The Sea House in Napili, chomping on yummy salads before going home to cook a more thorough dinner and sing karaoke to our favorite songs on Google Music, repeatedly coming back to Southern Cross by Crosby, Stills and Nash.

Saturday, Chip went zip lining without me, which I had tried here in Santa Cruz and found that the suspension bridges to be simply terrifying. Mostly I just hung out, doing major power lounging and tons of pure nothing, feeling incredibly decadent and fully on vacation. We were invited to a New Years Eve party in another unit, so bottle of wine in hand we went to meet the neighbors and eat luscious pupus. Mostly a tribe from Alaska, our hosts were gracious and kind, jamming in just a ton of people into their condo, really living the aloha spirit.

New Years Day we said goodbye to The Lokelani and moved down to Kaanapli Beach to stay a couple of nights at The Whaler, a huge resort complex in the middle of several other resorts. What a contrast from Hana! While we had a ocean view, the sound of the outside fountain, filters, and pool literally drowned out the surf, and the muggy temperature forced us to use the air conditioning rather than leaving the doors to the lanai open as we had done thus far.

We ate our complimentary pineapple with relish, then drove back to Kapalua to hike the second half of the trail. Moving off the beaten path we discovered wonderful tide pools, full of anemone and urchins, tiny fish and lots of crabs.

Once again we found ourselves hanging out at The Sea House, this time with a wondrous seared ahi salad. After lunch we sat and watched the paddle boarders, wandering the Napali beach and getting quite soaked by the waves. Later, back in Kapali, we cruised the different hotels trying to find some decent live music, ending up at The Tiki bar listening to a slack key guitar version of the twelve days of Christmas.

Monday we set off for central Maui to hike the Haleakala crater. A series of switchbacks took us up 10,000 feet, past the clouds and droves of bicyclist tours who had started earlier in the day at the base of the national park. The temperature dropped steadily, going from balmy 80 degrees to a very crisp 57. The views were amazing, the terrain quite the desert, looking like what I imagine Mars must be like, deep ferrous reds along with black lava, only the occasional silver sword plant dotting the landscape. The folks at the visitor center were extremely kind, and driving back down we blessed to see Nene, the local goose. We ate an extremely late lunch at the Kula Lodge, where we has the best salads, one spinach and one organic greens, along with my first lavender martini, a welcomed treat after a long day exploring the volcano.

Tuesday was our last day. We packed up and headed to Kahului airport, where we met Alex, the friendliest porter who actually hailed from Florida. We hung out at Stinger Rays, drinking Blue Hawaii's and Pina Coladas, feasting on nachos with pulled pork, looking a photos on the computer and patiently waiting for our departure.

What a wonderful experience. My first time in Hawaii was exceptional, seeing both sides of the island really felt like two vacations rolled into one. The people were so nice everywhere, the weather exceptional even when raining, and I look forward to a time of returning to this place of paradise.

Yes, I loved Maui, now I return to my own paradise, Santa Cruz, and my cats who say "Meow-y"

Adventures in Maui 2: East Side

2012-01-01T09:19:00.000-08:00

After flying in to Kahului, Maui airport around 3pm, we began the famous drive on the road to Hana. Twisty, turvy, often one lane, we crawled along at 15 miles per hour taking almost 3 hours to complete the sixty mile stretch. I tried to take pics of waterfalls as we went by, but soon got car sick and instead sat and breathed the humid air while feasting my eyes on the rich greens of the rain forest.

We arrived at our destination, Tutus house, a lovely cottage duplex that was to be home for the next five days. After unpacking we sauntered up to the old Hotel Hana, now called Traavasa, ate an incredibly delicious, expensive meal of steamed mahimahi with bok choy while making friends with the hotel cat, Mama.

The next day we set out looking for breakfast, ending up at the illustrious Uncle Bills, a shack like no other, filled with tacky decorations and served coffee in a penis mug (I kid you not) by the colorful queen of bacon fried in yesterday's drippings, Phyllis. One of the only places with Internet access, other customers chained smoked hand rolled cigarettes while we watched the local police arrive to question Phyllis about who knows what.

After checking emails and polishing off our coffee, we walked down to Hana Bay and hiked out along the point, discovering a placard to Queen Wainapanapa who had been brutally murdered by her husband. So much for aloha. Afterwards we stocked up on supplies at the Hasegawa General Store, got stamps at the post office, then had the most amazing meal at Braddah Hutts, a sumptuous shrimp pasta easily big enough for two, served and cooked outdoors under a few tarps. This was a super friendly place, soon to become one of our favorites.

On Thursday we went Power Hang Gliding with Armin Engert, an outstanding experience not to be missed. After a brief lesson, I pulled on my flight suit, climbed aboard, said some prayers and we launched into the sky. Armin took me out across the water, showing me how to control the glider, but after awhile I was quite content to hand back the controls as we zoomed along the coast line, up into the mountains to see amazing waterfalls, and even further until we were flying in a cloud. Armin was an excellent host and instructor, clearly someone who loved his work, his enthusiasm was quite contagious.

Later we drove up to the Nahiku marketplace for tea, fish tacos and coconut candy, continuing on to Wainapanapa Park, also known as black sand beach. We watched eager teenagers climb the cliffs and jump into the waters, found the blow hole, and hiked down to where their are sea caves. We went into a Lava Tube that was under the earth and walked for about half a mile through this huge cave/tunnel that was completely pitch dark and drippy wet. It was a self guided tour, they just hand you flash lights, and you follow this railing with little info placards on it every dozen feet or so. It was super cool and trippy, the ceiling high enough (like the living room) that I didn't feel claustrophobic. When we got to the end, before we turned around, we turned off our flashlights. It was beyond dark! Couldn't tell if my eyes were open or closed, really super creepy. It was chock full of stalactites and stalagmites and an underground bacteria that looked like gold glitter everywhere.

Outside of the lava tube was a maze made out of Ti, a local red plant, but as we wound our way through there were tons and tons of spider webs crossing our path. We used our flashlights to combat them, but after a few minutes of wandering around and feeling lost, we went back to the beginning to get out of spider hell.

Speaking of bacteria, just before leaving i got diagnosed with Lyme disease. Unfortunately I am on heavy duty antibiotics and cannot go into the sun, a huge bummer on this trip, so everyday have dressed in long sleeves and a floppy hat, forsaking any romping in the bay. Despite slathering myself with sunscreen, my hands have broken out in hives, and consistent headaches have plagued me this trip, as well as morning nausea. I look forward to returning in a time when I can play more.

Saturday, Christmas eve, we hiked the Oheo gorge along the Seven Sacred Pools, a series of waterfalls in Haleakala. It would start raining every twenty minutes or so, and the trail was muddy beyond belief. I was only wearing sandals, so the mud was squishishing between my toes, making it super slick and I almost fell on my ass more than once. Luckily Chip had brought hiking sticks, so I could move slowly along like some old lady. We took the secret forbidden path to the Infinity Pool, but didn't go swimming as there was warnings of some bacteria in the water that causes meningitis and I already have bacteria a plenty from ye olde tick bite. It was extremely beautiful, but you know me, I hate the rain and was quite relieved to turn back to the car. I saw more waterfalls today than maybe in my entire life. While my partner puttered around playing professional photographer, I found a comfortable rock to sit upon and meditate. I cast a circle and found myself infused with memories of songs. I found myself singing and singing, watching the aura of trees and feling deeply connected to the earth, the sky, the waters. I prayed to walk a healers path and for my own healing to be complete, healing my mind, healing my body. There are no words for what I felt in those long moments, yet I know them to be a resource I will draw upon for the rest of my life.

Christmas day was a transition time, and we left our pleasant cottage to move into the yurt at Luana Spa, which was truly awesome. Cozy, comfy, with spectacular views, an outside shower, and just the yummiest feeling, I felt deeply blessed to move into this hummy moon suite. After unpacking we hiked down to Red Sand Beach at Kaihalulu, where the waves were quite fierce and the ocean the most incredible shade of clear turquoise blue.

The first night, I went to go to use the outside bathroom and Chip followed me to brush his teeth. We heard a click and realized we had locked ourselves out! No door key, no car key, no cell phone, Chip in a bathrobe, the rain just starting...

First we tried to take the hinges off the door, but to no avail. We walked around trying to find a pay phone that worked, ending up at the beach, and finally able to call 911 who were no help whatsoever. We didn't know the owners name so couldn't call them either. All of this was on Christmas day, well, Christmas night by now.

We walked back to the yurt and realized that the keys were hanging right by the door. We found a plastic stool to stand on and could unhook the top plastic hooks that attach the yurt wall to it's ceiling tarp. The wall literally fell away, revealing the keys! Yay!

Then, the next day we had scheduled a private massage lesson with the owner, whose name turned out to be Nancy Plenty. She set us up in the haolo, a grassy hut overlooking the ocean. First I lay down and she instructed Chip on basic Swedish massage. I turned over and asked for a tissue as I got all cloggy. The Kleenex box was empty, so Chip fetched the one from our bathroom. I pulled out a rather tattered tissue, then a second one, when this HUGE RAT jumped out of the box, onto my belly, and scampered off the table and into the bushes. both Chip and Nancy screamed but I just laughed. Rat medicine...

Cunning rat of silent creeping,
Friend of Ganesha, lord of might,
Guide me through mazes by your foresight,
For all good things are mine by right.

The next day was our last in Hana. After packing up our stuff into the convertible, we headed off to the Sacred temple and botanical gardens in Kahanu. Situated in the storied land of Honomā`ele, Kahanu Garden is the home to Pi`ilanihale, a massive lava-rock structure that is believed to be the largest ancient place of worship (heiau) in Polynesia. This awe-inspiring cultural site is registered as a National Historic Landmark. Again I found myself singing, "Where I walk is holy
Holy is the ground,
Listen to the rhythm,
listen to the sound,
Great Spirit circle all around me..."

After a few hours we once again drove the famous Hana Highway, stopping for lunch in Piilani, the amount of people feeling overwhelming after the remoteness of Hana. We drove on to the west side of the isle to Kaanapali, where the second half our adventures awaited...

Aloha!

Adventures in Maui, part 1

2011-12-29T09:37:00.000-08:00

Right now I am sitting on an airplane on my way to Hawaii. After three hours, my knees are beginning to ache, but I no longer feel nauseous from this mornings dose of antibiotics to combat Lyme disease. I hear a baby crying, but the one next to me has been almost as adorable as my cat. There is the smell of corn nuts, making me feel peckish, but all in all I feel content in the moment, looking forward to this vacation.

One of the joys of being self employed is choosing my own hours, but actual vacations are rare. Last year I went to Sweden for ten days with my mom to pick up her new Volvo. This year I have gone to San Diego twice for long weekends, once for my partner's high school reunion and once right after his mother died. I'm not overly fond of flying, and need to remember to take ibuprofen before we get on our departing flight home. I did stock up on airborne and drank it's fizzy goodness after lunch.

I am looking forward to doing lots of nothing, and really have no expectations, besides for enjoying this time with Chip. I'm excited to do something new and appreciate him taking me out of my comfort zone. I miss my daughter and the cats already, sending them little infinity loops of love in prayer, and my mind still drifts to work. I need to set my vacation responder on my emails when I have Internet service again, and I feel a great relief to be away from my everyday responsibilities, from cleaning the house and pruning the yard to meeting clients and grading homework.

Maybe I'll spend some time cleaning up my facebook account, but mostly I want to really relax. Lyme disease aside, I have felt exhausted for months, generating the income to go on this trip, and I certainly have a deep satisfaction to having paid my property taxes and my bills without completely depleting my bank account.

I hope to work on my tarot project. I brought templates and colored pencils, as well as a new deck to play with, The Joie de Vivre tarot, the name seems apropos. I won't be able to go into the sun much as a result of the medication, so this project will literally be made in the shade.

We are experiencing some turbulence and I think about the recent episodes of Lost we have been watching. We filled out agricultural forms to be entered into a drawing - how very American, do your duty and maybe win a prize - and now are waiting to be served complimentary Mai tais, a drink I've never had before. Already it's an adventure.

Aloha!

It's 5 am in Amsterdam and this is how I know...

2011-12-28T09:12:00.000-08:00

Actually, it is 7:30 am at the St. Columba retreat house, I am sitting feeling grateful for hot coffee, my shoulders cramped and sore after a poor night's sleep in the freezing cold dorm room, where only after piling on even more blankets into the bunk bed did I find myself in grateful slumber.

I dreamt that I was an antiques fair, and people were taking off in these para-sail like buses. One guy was bummed because his bus had gotten graffittied on overnight. I showed him that the graffiti was just stickers and could peel right off. Then something about going swimming with Lisa and Henry, but that seems vague now.

Chip forgot his shaver and forgot both my jacket and to bring a bra. I guess I'm really on vacation now. There are good smells of breakfast in the room, quiet, hushed whispers of " good morning", our need for politeness and connection overcoming the request for silence. I remember this from before, the quiet thank you's, and how I loved these human lapses.

I am looking forward to going on a walk, working the chinks out of my bones, and already feel the time slipping away, as my monkey mind clamors to read my book, make some drawings, write a hundred love letters today. After looking at the quotes from last night's workshop, I remember to take it slow, to enjoy each micro moment for exactly what it is. I also realize how much I look forward to going to Hawaii for two weeks, the time period seems extremely luxurious, to indulge in nothingness and be a part of the flow. I will remember to take less things to do with me to the islands, but maybe I will remember to take a bra or two...

Are the stars too distant, pick up the pebble that lies at thy feet, and from it learn the all. -Margaret Fuller

Blessed be,

Joie de Vivre Tarot

2011-12-24T10:17:00.000-08:00

I am on vacation in Maui, playing with my new tarot deck, the Joie de Vivre Tarot created by Paulina Cassidy and published by US Games Systems. My partner is off snorkeling, the perfect opportune moment to layout my tie die bandana as an altar cloth, focus on the Solstice, and all that will unfolding the coming new year.

The cards are light and whimsical, each fairy tale like with undertones of a more serious nature, a cross between Where the Wild Thins Are and A Nightmare Before Christmas. The little white book reveals the names of the characters, casting a spell of enchantment, leading me further down the rabbit hole. After shuffling the cards, I lay them down in the Motherpeace spread.

My significator is Five of Wands reversed. "In a scuffle, Rumble the tree and Fray the boy have their own strategies..." the message is how to change creative conflicts into creative visions, the power of positive competition. I think about play, my new cat playing with her toy mouse, increasing her hunting skills, and I ponder my own feelings of competitiveness to increase my skills, rather than the weariness of battles, real or imagined, internal or otherwise.

My source of strength is the Knight of coins, a placid image, I like seeing the textures of the water color creating swirls behind the champion on his steed. "Dedication...sits thoughtfully upon his blue horse named Caution." Patience and perseverance are the theme, along with commitment and follow through, certainly qualities I appreciate in myself right now.

My challenge lies in the Five of Swords. Two bird women beings cross each other, one with jewels hanging from her thin sharp curved blade. "Squabble and Quarrel are always in conflict... (but) the true event is battle of ego. victory and pride are not worth the cost of friendship." This hits me hard, and I realize where I have been the harpy lately, my own part in recent transitions of long friendships which have changed dramatically in the last year. I ponder the message, "reevaluate circumstances, there's always room for new directions."

At the root of the reading is Ten of Swords, I notice I've already pulled two fives. A veiled fairy sits by a stream, one sword across her lap while contemplating a snake in a stream, nine swords behind her, embedded upright in the ground. A small snail is her companion. As I turn the pages of the LWB, I feel weepy as I read the description, "Feeling at her lowest point, Lament unleashes the power of sheer will to lessen the impact that turmoil brings." I have been feeling stabbed in the back recently (back to 5 of swords) and take comfort in the message that "her worries are farther away than she realizes."

In the sky is Six of Cup - a sassy mermaid swims with two mer-bunnies, who look like joyful jesters in this underwater scene. Certainly this is most of my mind, my own and other's emotional healing, coming back to play and innocence, changing dis-illusionment (who wants to be illusioned?) to fresh vision. "Swimming side by side, Bliss and her mer-bunny friends, Charity and Innocence, appreciate the simple joys of life." The message here is to analyze what worked in the past and to update my actions to suit my current situation.

The immediate past, the last six weeks, is represented by XIV- Temperance reversed. A female figure with four arms, claw feet and doves wings combines essences in test tubes, holding the comedy and tragedy masks while a skull and bones pile at her feet. Her hair is made up of blue and red snakes, and she has sun and moon symbols on her pinafore. Last Temperance is "an alchemist, she achieves cooperation by combining forces...increasing your ability to adapt to change."

The immediate future, next six weeks, heralds the King of Coins, a strong bunny figure holding a red flower and a sunflower scepter, the shadow of a heart at his feet, purse bulging at his side. Stable "King Fortune stands proudly before his kingdom...Finding opportunity everywhere, he succeeds at whatever he sets his mind to." This fills me with confidence and hope, the feeling of resolve as I continue to work on my PhD and cultivate more clients in my practice as a holistic healer.

My mirror card reflects the King of Cups (2 kings in this reading). "King Serenity, kind and patient, is a natural healer...He's loyal to his purpose and possesses great knowledge drawn from the heart." Indeed, this figure holds one hand open while holding a full vessel, beautiful robes ornate with hearts, a protective cloak and crowned on gold leaves, I welcome this image of being the master of my emotions now.

In my house is XV- the Devil. A spooky spidery figure stands on top of a treasure chest with a face, while pulling the strings of a marionette who holds scissors and a heart. The devil is chained to the chest and has a belt made out of shrunken heads. "Though Deception wears an expression of self contentment, his garish hat portrays the expression of despair." the message continues, "Cutting the strings that bind him, Flee is moments away from fleeing the bonds of limitation."

Hopes/Fears are to be found in III- The Empress, interesting with all the kings in this reading. A beautiful nymph dressed in green, she has both hearts and sculls decorating her green leaf dress. She carries a shield with the Venus symbol on it in one hand, a moon faced scepter is the other, complete with a ribbon full of jingling bells. She stands on top of crescent moon in a field of flowers. "Containing the life force that gives birth to all creation, the Empress Blossom wears a nest of eggs on her head... Blossom is a beacon of delight and opulence." The message is to nurture ideas to bring forth positive energies.

My final card, outcome over the year, is XVI-the Tower, reversed. The tower is being destroyed from the onside by a monster with octopus tentacles and a lampreys head. A girl in a quilted dress falls from the tower, while butterflies grab the hem of her skirt and lift her upwards. "Hurling downwards from her tower of illusion, Discordia is rescued by butterflies, manifestations of her self-empowerment." The message here is clear, "regardless of how difficult change can be, soul shaking experiences are necessary to bring you out of your comfort zone and provide insight for further growth."

Blessed be.

What do I want to be in touch with regarding gratitude?

2011-12-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

Being more grateful for my parents and I'd like to practice sending out the love infinity prayer to her just as I have with others this week.

Being more grateful for my health and for having overcome past addictions, practicing a kinder gentler path.

Truly enjoying myself, being grateful for my clients and that I don't have to have a housemate or do websites to earn money. My practice will be in writing love letters.

Love letters, my practice is in writing love letters - to my clients, to my colleagues, to my friends and family. I used to have writing to my mom on my monthly list and I want to setup a schedule for myself of reaching out on a more regular basis to my mom, my brother, my aunt, just as my dad and I see each other for lunch every two weeks.

I want to put into my calendar a schedule to update my profiles, send out emails, etc as a way to love my practice.I want to send out more follow ups with new clients as well as regular mailings of post cards, magnets, etc, the the little tokens of love and inspiration.

I want to keep texting Amber and posting on fb as a way to maintain our continuity when apart.

I want a check in system with Chip, like therapy, to keep voicing my truth and giving him the time and space to voice his. I want to remember to say thank you after each time he feeds me, each time he drives over the hill.

I want to be grateful for my house rather than seeing it as a burden, to take delight in the improvements, in a flourishing garden.

I want to be grateful for my friends and invite them over for dinner or parties, to enjoy our laughter and feel our mutual support.

I want to be more grateful for my students and the staff at Twin Lakes College, offer more of my essence through classes and workshops without being so concerned about what will I get paid.

I want to be more grateful for working at the office and the space it provides for my healing practice, as well as being more grateful for the referrals and giving more referrals.

I want to be more grateful and graceful at my networking groups.

I want. I can. I will. I have and will again. And so it is..

I am grateful right here, right now. I am great and I am full.

Blessed be.

Qualities in myself I am grateful for

2011-12-07T09:49:00.000-08:00

I am grateful for
My intelligence, my capacity to synthesize information
My incredible memory, especially for peoples names
My health and willingness to be healthier
My sense of humor
My ability to find the positive
My voice, in hypnosis especially
My ability to facilitate healing through reiki, hypnotherapy
My love of the esoteric
My deep curiosity
My organization, efficiency, tidiness and cleanliness
My ocd ways
My willingness to change my mind, my flexibility, my fluidity
My patience
My kindness and compassion
My ability to problem solve
My loyalty and tenacity, my commitment
My education, college and graduate, formal and informal
My ability to handle money
My ethics and morals, my sense of integrity
My parenting skills
My experiences with other lovers I bring to this relationship
My comfortableness with my body
My capacity for forgiveness, especially of myself
My willingness to laugh out loud, sing out loud
My sense of justice, fairness
My peaceful, diplomatic nature, my pacifist side
My inner warrior, willing to fight
My internal priestess, my deep intuition
My cycles and seasons, rhythms and tides
My grace, my ability to dance
My deep listening
My ability to really pay attention
My humbleness
My authenticity
I walk my talk and practice what I preach

Blessed be,

Simple things I am grateful for today

2011-11-30T09:29:00.000-08:00

I am grateful for Chip
I am grateful that the cats are getting along
I am grateful for my warm shawl from my mother, from Guatalmala
I am grateful for my iPad and for dad giving it to me
I am grateful to live in Santa Cruz
I am grateful for a yummy dinner
I am grateful to have money in the bank
I am grateful that my closet is organized
I am grateful for my students showing up
I am grateful for my clients doing the work
I am grateful to myself for quitting internet marketing and the time I have enjoyed creating websites
I am grateful for Amber, pure and simple
I am grateful not to have to use an alarm clock
I am grateful for my health
I am grateful to feel in love
I am grateful I am am smart and intelligent
I am grateful for my spiritual practice

I am grateful to have laughed out loud today

Blessed be,

Tarot Through the Cat's Eyes

2011-11-29T14:39:00.000-08:00

"A cat has nine lives, 3 he plays, 3 he strays and 3 he stays"- from the Cat's Eye Tarot by Debra M. Givin, DVM

Mercury went retrograde on thanksgiving day, in Sagittarius, sign of the archer. Time to pull back on that bow, reflect on your target, before following through...

I thought to myself, what better way to review my goals than a tarot reading? I decided on a Nine Lives Spread using the Cat's Eye Tarot by Debra M. Givin, DVM, recently published by U. S. Games Systems.

Softly illustrated, this is obviously a great deck for any cat lover, one of my favorite parts being the green cats eyes on the back of each card. I loved XII - the Hanged Kitty, as being one of the best cat interpretations of tarot. I also enjoyed seeing the cats paws on each of the aces, reminiscent of the hand coming out of the clouds in the Rider Waite deck. I would have liked to see more on the royal cards, for example the king of cups could have had one paw in the fish bowl, but overall a delightful deck and one I am happy to introduce to my students of tarot and to gift to my friends.

I shuffled the cards while focusing on my career, curious as to what the cards would reveal on my path to being in service. Pulling from the top of the deck, I laid on nine cards in a three by three pattern. The columns represented youth, middle age and maturity. The rows corresponded to playing, straying and staying.

I liked this simple spread sheet type of lay out, easy to remember and work with. Starting in the middle column and moving down, for my current life experience the cards showed me first in play, five of swords reversed, a hissing cat at the vet. The message is to not ever react with emotion. Fives are the number of change, swords symbolize the mental plane, and I thought about the ways in which I can play with changing my mind.

The next card was showing where I have strayed - ten of pentacles showed two contented cats, fat and sassy in the barn, an affirmation of my own striving for abundance. Tens are completion, pentacles on the physical realm, and I contemplated what having a full client schedule would look like, feel like, where it would energize me, where I fear it would tire me.

The third card was indicating where I will stay - XIX, the sun card, showed a Ginger tabby basking by blooming daisies, seeming to be supported by a pillar of marble while gazing at a garden. What a lovely card, the message being confidence, clarity and renewal of sunnier energies.

I moved to the youth column, representing my youth. Play was two of pentacles, a white bellied tabby flinging a mouse on a string creating an infinity loop, a reminder of balancing the physical realm. Stray was VI, the lovers card, upside down, with the clear message of the difficult choices relationships can bring. Stay was Knight of Wands, the quester of passion, a big orange tabby high up in a tree, smugly looking at the dawn below.

Last was the maturity column, starting with Wheel of Fortune in the play position, a couple of cats hunt two mice while sparrows narrowly avoid the same fate. Change is always my friend. The stray card was VIII - Strength, a kitten and a big dog sharing a calm space, again a message to not over react but instead to come from a compassionate place of inner strength and acceptance.

The third card, representing stay, was eight of cups, traditionally the card of withdrawal, showing a black and white cat leaving a home after a new puppy has arrived. A sad card, I did not want this to be my ending, so I pulled one more card, XX- Judgement, two Siamese cats bask on a stone ledge by a cat gargoyle, a purple twilight gracing the background. The message is to take an honest look at myself, and to not ignore any opportunities for true progress on my journey, which left this tarot reader purring...

Evening notes

2011-11-23T09:18:00.000-08:00

There is an intimacy within silence
A chance to remember your Self

Gratefulness
Great fullness
Gratitude and hope are active states, spiritual practices

Today I saw
Deer - be gentle with your Self
Mouse - pay attention to the details
Suggestion: Create a gratitude journal
What was the best thing that happened your the day?

Deepak Chopra reminds us - connect yourself to a higher vision of life through gratitude
Being mindful means being grateful in the moment

Right now I am
Grateful that my cats
Poppy and June are together

Blessing is related to the word blood
Let it flow and return to source
From the heart
Back to the heart

Bless this Space Between Us - a book recommendation

Taking things for granted does not make us happy
Essence is lost
Being busy vs slowing down more
A common theme
In practicing gratitude

Holding On

2011-11-21T09:24:00.000-08:00

After the morning session at the writer's retreat, I changed into shorts and we went to the Blackbird cafe. I found myself enjoying the warm porcelain of the mug more than the actual coffee, staring aimlessly out the window at Tomales bay, just being present with the wood floor, the spilled creamer, the fancy pants car that pulled up so someone could drop off their used netflix at the post office.

We drove a long way to the lighthouse, the fog growing thicker and more surreal, some trepidation growing inside me. It was a thick blanket of grey by the time we reached our destination, after winding through cow pastures a plenty, cattle ranches and farms dotting the way. I was already cold, a condition I abhor, and was grateful that I had brought along pants and my winter jacket.

We hoofed it up to the visitors center, the cypress trees crying drops of condensed mist, creating a microcosm of damp earth, filled with rich moss. I was amazed at the lack of parking, the amount of folks out on this Sunday, despite the inclement weather. We wound our away to the weather station, where a brisk wind would occasionally reveal the ocean far below, information boards proudly proclaiming recorded gusts of 133 miles an hour, maybe my definition of hell.

We walked a little ways back, finding a surprisingly warm bench to eat our sandwiches, sharing potato chips and water. Chip opted to go on to the light house, but I balked at seeing the sign warning that the steps were the equivalent of climbing 30 stories, knowing my knees would complain the rest of the week. I wandered back to the car, the condensation so thick on my glasses that I just took them off, content to have blurry vision in the fog.

I sat in the car and continued to work on what had become my main focus in these last few days, facing my own struggles and writing to affirm myself all the times I had overcome similar obstacles in the past, all the resources I could draw upon now. Chip bounced up to the car, my happy Tigger, ready to hike into the wind and nestle into the poison oak and tick filled grasses. I struggle with the recent concepts of being content with the way things are and the need to create my own reality, which did not include being cold or being exposed to Lyme disease. I tried to not sound cranky as I requested we move some where more conducive to my needs, like the retreat house or a cosy cafe.

We ended up just going down to the beach a few miles away, instantly much sunnier, the sound of the elephant seals filling the air. We had passed many cows and a herd of deer or elk, the fawns practically obnoxious in crossing the roadway. We walked down to the rescue station, where for years brave men had launched boats to aid those who had been lost in the sea and fog, ships run aground and airplanes that had crashed on the shores.

We sat at a picnic table and shared our latest writing, I finally found the courage to share my piece on my real challenges, tears running down my face, choking up in places. We seemed to talk for a long time, and I found that beacon of hope in my chest, a lightening of my spirit as my internal fog lifted.

We walked back to the car and Chip went on another hike while I started a new Sherri Tepper novel, drinking his cold coffee and munching on potato chips. At some point I became anxious, looking up the trail for his familiar red sweat shirt, beginning to imagine the worst and wondering at what point would I go looking for him. I admonished myself to stop catastrophizing, to enjoy the calm warm car, but still my eyes would glance up at the end of every page.

My heart lept when I did see his familiar gait, and I felt silly for having wasted any time in worry. We went back to retreat house to change our clothes before venturing to Point Reyes Station for dinner, ending up at a very pleasant saloon with live music and yummy food. We talked about Gengis Khan and gratitude, holding hands when possible and thoroughly enjoying fresh popovers, speculating on blessings in disguise and how to create our future together.

Now we are back at the retreat house, a quilt resting gently across our laps, sharing the space with other participants, working on our writing assignments. I am tired but quite content, feeling happy with the little rock that Chip bought me, It has the single word on it, gratitude, and I know that this is something I can hold on to.

Blessed be.

On Retreat

2011-11-16T09:49:00.000-08:00

Friday October 28, 2011

We have arrived at St. Columba retreat house in Inverness, near Pt Reyes. I picked Chip up at Google around 2pm, driving 101 through busy San Francisco, a windy tour into the northern seashore. After dropping off our stuff we walked the skinny shoulder of the road into Inverness to dine at Priscellas on fish tacos and a sumptuous pesto penna pasta. I am aware of our talking, on this silent retreat, aware of the pauses, the moments of quiet, the need to share, our deep caring for each other.

I am deciding whether to bring my iPad into the workshop or to use my handy dandy journal, noticing the tap of my fingertips compared to the scratching of the pen, the incessant auto correct which is wrong in comparison to my own scribblings, an incessant need to edit, to make tidy and perfect.

What is my intention? To write, of course, but what springs forth is to write love letters - to Chip, to Amber, to Z, to Scott in a coma, to my clients, to myself. What are the letters of love? Looking at the Hebrew letters on the sun and moon tarot deck, what are the letters I would like to inscribe on my deck?

I wanted to make tarot templates before this trip, but time eluded me, getting caught up in the tides and eddies of cleaning the house, clearing my desk, last minute phone calls and emails. When do I put myself first? I comfort myself that all is within, and while I may not be able to draw a perfect circle, I know I can draw upon my own creativity to begin what maybe I see as my great work, my chef d'oevre, even knowing in this moment that the quest is elusive and to enjoy the journey more than the destination.

Five years ago I really began talking about my intention to create a tarot deck, specifically by the time I am 50. Now at 45 I feels my own pressure, get with it, start writing, start sketching. I have momentary jealousies when I see a colleague who has created a deck, who is being published, and I need to remind myself that my time is my own, dedicated to Amber, dedicated to putting food on the table and paying off debts, there is plenty of time, plenty of time.

Recently I sketched out the minor arcana, and we'll see if I dedicate time to creating more fuller versions this weekend, or if my ramblings will take me elsewhere, always a learning experience, always a part of the process.

We are sleeping in bunk beds, a far cry from spooning together, yet I am so grateful to have Chip by my side, willing to enjoy this experience together. I send the cats energy and assurances, mom is just on a big hunt, and I will be back soon. Meanwhile, the retreat has just begun to be...

A treat!

Our first workshop, Chip and I pass each other our writings, I notice all the people from past retreats, those who are new. I'm curious about their stories, in slight awe of my own, from three years ago being in grief and torment over Chip, last year he house sat for me, this time he is by my side. I pulled the card of change a few days ago, and the wheel keeps on turning.

I am slightly chilled, at least my nose and cheeks, I can't believe I forgot to bring my jacket, she who is addicted to the black velvet. Addiction is my other theme this weekend, noticing all the times I have overcome past addictions, from cigarettes to farmville. I enjoyed my Lagunitas IPA at dinner, conscious of being grateful for moderation on this journey,

Blessed be.

A Blessing in Disguise

2011-11-14T09:15:00.000-08:00

So you might know things as they are.-Jane Hirshfield

It is all hallow eve
And here at my door
Ghosts and goblins
Witches and more

Clamoring for candy
Or a least a treat
Here come others
Bustling down my street

In each one I see
The questions I ask
How to be authentic
To take off my mask

Becoming more familiar
With the skeletons in my closet
Realizing now
They are friends not yet met

We dress up our problems
Parading our fears
Put butterfly wings
On all our fairy tears

Shooting for the moon
Even if it is far
Looking in the mirror
So I might know things as they are

Facing the truth
Letting go of the lies
Each of my problems
A blessing in disguise

Make another wish

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000-08:00

It's 11:11pm on 11/11/11 - make another wish! Post it in the comments section.

Now change it to "I will..."

Make a Wish

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000-08:00

It is 11:11 on 11/11/11! Post it in the comments section and I will send you energy for fulfillment...

Everday Mystic

2011-11-09T17:08:00.000-08:00

Taking a hot shower, the miracle of modern day plumbing
Coming home, the porch light is already on
The back yard is my temple, my sacred space
I am the priestess of pruning, invoking hummingbirds
Bees and ravens, a choir of leaves whispering
Dappled sunlight stains the grass
The clerestory of my personal cathedral
My vision of heaven on earth is here
I examine roots and bulbs, rose hips and passion vine
Inviting my teachers, cats, beetles, spiders and snakes
To teach me their ways of quiet contentment
I kneel in the dirt, grit under my praying hands
Pulling out my negative thoughts, planting seeds of change
Finding wisdom in watering, irrigating my soul
The deep peace of sweeping the deck yet again
Paying attention to the dusky hues, rising moon
I am planting my future now by enjoying the present moment
Breathing in the jasmine, I am not alone but all one
Here with my self, grateful for being the creatrix
Open to the mysteries as the night unfurls
Moving back inside to simply make soup
Supping on a blessed life, I break my own bread.

Blessed be.

Saturday at the Silent Retreat

2011-10-11T09:09:00.000-07:00

As I sat down to breakfast
I noticed Love walk in the door
And put a coffee cup
Across from me

I heard Love buttering a bagel
- Love likes it with jam
Wondering how it would be
With Love across from me

I heard Love gulp down coffee
And slurp on yogurt
I wondered if that’s how Love
Would sound between my thighs

I kept my eyes downcast
Knowing I’d be blinded in the light
But I kept Love in my peripheral vision
I kept Love in my sight.

October 2009

Notes to Amber

2011-09-29T09:07:00.000-07:00

My sweetest girl
Remember to stay sweet
and gentle and kind
and how much the animals trust you

Remember to sing aloud
Not just in the show
Play music while doing chores

Keep on wearing
mismatched socks
Sparkly earrings
And warm jackets

Buy year round boardwalk passes
Go to the skating rink
Put 10% into savings
And buy ice cream
Everyday

Read out loud to children
Read softly to your self
feel safe at night
With the blanket on your head
And the cat curled up
At your feet

Remember that fairies are real
They’re just not what you think
And that wishes grow from roses
Turning pebbles into crystals
At the blink of an eye

Remember I’m here for you
I’ll always listen to you
I’ll always love you
I always wanted you
You are more than enough
You are perfect to me

My sweet Amber Rose
I’m always proud of you
I’m always glad you chose me
To be your parent

There’s times we weren’t friends
When you didn’t like what i said
When you didn’t like me
But I hope you know
I always held your best interests at heart
I tried to be the best teacher
The best guide
The best advocate I could be
I tried my best
To be your mother

I hope you remember
My crazy songs and silly jokes
Driving to school
Listening to the radio together

I hope you remember
I was always willing to listen
And willing to change my mind
Willing to look at myself
willing to be kind

My Sweet Amber
In my notes to you
All i really want to say
Is how much I love you
-Mom

Happy Fall Equinox

2011-09-22T22:03:00.000-07:00

Libra: The Scales
An Interpersonal, Cardinal Air Sign
Sign of the Diplomat
Air Image: A Rainbow
Relates to Venus & The Seventh House
Soul Purpose: To cooperate with others
and to create balance & harmony
Key Phrase: “I Relate”

Altar-A-GoGo
Zodiac Series
Collages for recycled altoid boxes
2.00" x 3.5"

Notes from My Inner Girl

2011-09-10T09:04:00.000-07:00

Paint your toenails
Dye your hair
Wear glitter more often

    Put stickers on everything
    Write in your dairy
    Keep secrets

Flirt more often
Be sincere
Give out compliments freely

    Talk to cats
    Take more walks
    And nap more

Play with your toys
Put them away
Throw away what’s broken

    Eat anything you want
    Swing on swings
    Balance on the railroad tracks

Believe in fairies
Believe in magic
Believe in yourself

Crayons are our friend
So is modgepodge
Never throw away art supplies

    Be generous
    Be gracious
    You are a queen ballerina

Love your friends
Your friends love you
Love yourself.

Open House for Inner Resources: Hypnotherapy Program

2011-09-02T09:59:00.000-07:00

Introductory lecture with Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT

If you've ever been interested in learning hypnosis, either to augment your healing practice or to become a certified hypnotherapist, now is the time to sign up! Come to an informative lecture and learn more about Inner Resources Hypnotherapy Certification Program.

Open House on Tuesday, September 6, 5pm-7pm
Twin Lakes College

1525 B Seabright Ave.
Santa Cruz, CA 95062
Map
831–476–2152

Inner Resources Hypnotherapy I

A Therapeutic Approach to Accessing the Healer Within

Location: Twin Lakes College of the Healing Arts

Starts September 22, 2011
Thursdays 9am to 1pm plus 4 Saturdays

Our client–centered Hypnotherapy Program, Inner Resources: A Therapeutic Approach to Accessing the Healer Within, has been a state–approved professional vocational training since 1985. It is regarded as one of the finest personal and professional experiences for individuals who want a complete and in–depth training, integration, and supervision of the applications of therapeutic trance. (More...)

"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations."-Anais Nin

Happy Lammas - The Time of the Unexpected Gift

2011-09-01T09:55:00.000-07:00

Happy Lammas -

The Time of the Unexpected Gift.

Traditionally a time of feeling blessed if a second set of lambs were born, in modern times it is associated with spreading joy by sharing the abundance. It's also a time to check in with your own self care before getting caught up in the whirlwind of Fall activities, from starting school to new athletic teams, let alone preparing for Winter and the upcoming holidays. Do you find your self:

Needing a vacation from your vacation?
Wanting to feel relaxed and rejuvenated?
Seeking balance and internal harmony?

I am always available to assist your process, combining tools for transformation, customized to your experience, drawing upon that which will benefit you the most:

Hypnosis for personal successful solutions
Astrology Readings as a personal map
Reiki healing energy
A Whole Hearted Tarot Reading

My regular offices hours are:

Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays mornings in Soquel
Monday and Tuesday afternoons in Santa Cruz

Call or email for your appointment today!

What was the most fun you had this summer? Take a moment to close your eyes, take a deep breath in, and really remember a moment simple happiness. This will be a seed to cherish over the days and weeks to come.

For myself, my partner and I made a series of short videos on self empowerment, starting our own company, Chayla Productions. The three first releases out, coming soon are short presentations on The Power of Journaling, The Power of Affirmations, a Chakra Balancing, and a full tongue in cheek spoof on hypnosis, The "Happy as a Clam" Meditation.

I'm interested in creating webinars and videos based on my workshops and classes, including Creative Abundance, Beginning Astrology, Numerology, Radiate You Beauty, and Learning the Tarot. What would you be interested in? Your feedback is appreciated, and of course, private lessons always available

May the Fall equinox bring you harmony, equilibrium and an abundance of joy.

Blessed be,

Kayla
PS Spread the love! Gift Certificates are always available!

The Telephone Game

2011-08-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

Whispered words
Circle the room
Crackling fire
We all try
Not to listen
While we try
to really listen
What will i hear?
What has been lost?
In this conversation
In that translation
Hiding mouths behind hands
looks of concentration
Suppressed giggles
Bent heads in anticipation
Shrugs of shoulders
Lifting of hands
It’s not just me
Who doesn’t understand
We laugh nervously
Notice the story getting shorter
Somehow funnier
As it gains momentum
Fire flames higher
Almost my turn
Hope what I hear
Is not a burn
How do I stay true
To the words in my ear
What is it anyways
That we really hear?

If Light Had a Mouth and Tongue

2011-08-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

“If Light Had a Mouth and Tongue” - line by Mary Oliver

At dawn, she would murmur a prayer
Grateful for hot coffee to welcome the morning
As night vanishes into sunlight
joyous chatter describing dreams
moves into revealing plans and visions
By noon the familiar litany
Strong dependable, an exaltation
Afternoon delights, whispered sweetness
Sunset soliloquies, sonnets divine
In the twilight hour softer still
Until darkness encourages kisses
Sweet good nights, gratitude in knowing
“If light had a mouth and tongue”
Each day would have something new to say

Simple Self Hypnosis Technique

2011-08-03T10:23:00.000-07:00

Here's our second video:

Tea for Two

2011-07-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

There are times I pull a book from the shelf
When really I need to listen to myself
Times I pick up the phone to make a call
But the truth is - Inside, I know it all

Times I ask my therapist, Times I ask my mother
The lady at the drugstore, just some other
Person to download all of my blues
But talking to myself has all of the clues
Looking for a deeper more meaningful sensation
It’s with my soul I’d like to have a conversation

I’d like to know that I’ve really been heard
It’s all here, maybe just not in words
Taking myself out today for 4 o’clock tea
And really, really listening to me

Discover Hypnosis

2011-07-27T10:22:00.000-07:00

So excited to be working with my partner on a series of videos...

Listening as a Spiritual Practice

2011-07-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

If I accept every moment as an opportunity to hear messages from the beyond, I notice myself listening to the radio for snippets of wisdom, reading every bumper sticker as a personal communication from god.

    Listening to my clients creates compassion and empathy clearly, but listening to myself somehow is harder. Taking note of my body’s sensations, every emotion allows my creativity to flourish, even in using crayons to doodle my grayest interior, the fierce red flashes of pain in my joints, the hidden truths behind any headache.

    Joan of Arc was killed for listening to the voices in her head, yet she led an army into triumph. Who am I to deny myself triumph when maybe all I heard was a small voice say “don’t take the freeway”?

    The more I listen, the less I speak, wisdom seems to flourish in my soul, giving me guidance, confidence, and peace. Blessed be.

Notes To Listen Care Fully

2011-06-29T09:35:00.000-07:00

• Make eye contact.

• Repeat back what you just heard.

• Pay attention to the body - match their posture, gesture, breathing.

• Make mental notes on your fingers to avoid interrupting. You will remember anything that is important when it is your turn to speak.

• Ask good questions - Go deeper.

• Give all the time in the world.

• Don’t try to fix, solve, or give advice.

• When appropriate, share a story about a similar situation or experience without the expectation that this person will do the same thing. Offer comfort, understanding, empathy and perspective.

• Tell them “I love you” with your eyes while they are talking.

• Follow up somehow - a note, an email, a remark the next day to say: I heard you. I validate you. I know you can work it out. I’m confident in you and appreciate you trusting me with your story.

What My Body Tells Me

2011-06-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

My body never lies. My body tells me “yes” when I think of you. My heart races, my eyes widen, and there is an unmistakable tingling between my thighs.
    My body told me when it was not okay. Slowly at first, small burps and farts, escalating as I didn’t listen to full blown acid reflex, the beginning of an ulcer.
    My body feels safe with you now. It sleeps easily in your arms, our feet caressing at the southern hemisphere of blanketdom. My body tells me yes, yes, this is the time, this is the place, this is the one - for right now, for this moment, letting go of any expectations of forever-ness. I notice my fists unclenching underneath the cover of the pillow, the relaxation travels through my wrists and elbows, smoothing out the knots in my muscles, the tension in my shoulder blades.
    For long I doubted, for long I feared, I held back, and my body is flooded with relief to trust, to hope, to burst with joy at the sight of your eyes, the touch of your palm, the exchange of breath before we kiss.
    My body tells me, yes, yes, do this, walk this path with this person at this time. Combine your energies and be amazed at how far the two of you will climb.

Right Now

2011-05-29T09:06:00.000-07:00

It is Saturday afternoon at a writer's retreat. After the morning session and lunching on the rest of yesterday’s sandwich, I spent most of the day studying Ageless Body, Timeless Wisdom by Deepak Chopra. Friday was spent reading Wild Dogs by Helen Humphries.
    Time is fluid here, as I drink my coffee and switch positions, my aching knees telling me to get up, move, go pee. I feel pleased to have accomplished this simple of goal, of staying focused, rather than driving all over Point Reyes , coloring tarot cards or penning my lover letters.
    I’m looking forward to this writing session, socked feet curled up on the cozy couch, my glasses in place. I’m also looking forward to taking a walk this eve, now that the weather is gentled.
    How often I dwell on the past, how often I write “I’m looking forward...” instead of “I can’t wait.” Because I do have to wait, and much more than the waiting is the feeling of just be present, this here, this now, this moment, this circle of women, this fire’s particular cackle, this witch's’ particular intention.

Tips for Transformation

2011-05-11T11:11:00.000-07:00

Tips for Transformation

• Drink water: no ice – you’ll drink more; same with using a straw. When you urinate, consciously let go of whatever has been pissing you off lately. Same when you defecate – say out loud, “I now release all this old crap.” Notice that as you release the accumulated emotional and physical toxins, the sense of well being and serenity that permeates your body.

• Breathe: take in what you need, and let go of what no longer serves you. Take deeper and deeper breaths until you feel the richness in your veins. Laughter is the best medicine – Breathe into your Buddha belly and feel a big belly laugh whenever you want to feel high.

• Purify: hot showers, hot baths, hot tubs saunas: release toxins naturally and effectively. Transmute old poisons, shed your skin, wash away the past to feel cleansed and renewed. Neti pots cleanse the sinuses & clear the head of congested thoughts.

• Cry: with a friend, a counselor, your favorite pet, a sappy movie, or yourself. Release grief, disappointment, guilt, heart break, frustration & the chemical compounds found only in emotional tears.

• Combine modalities: Chiropractic, acupuncture, traditional therapy, Reiki, nutrition and massage support the mind-body connection made during hypnosis. Ask for personal recommendations.

• Meditate: Start your day by simply stating your intentions, take a moment to visualize them as if they have already occurred, feel that in your body, and breathe it into every cell of your being. To further amplify this frequency, write in your journal, speak your truth, or better yet, sing your truth. Attract what you need in order to grow.

• Love your body: Feed yourself good, yummy foods that you truly enjoy to nourish your whole being; play with your body, dance, do yoga, go roller skating, get an exercise ball, stretch. Get rid of your scale – you’ll be surprised how much happier you’ll feel.

• Sleep: as much as you want to. Take naps. Remember your dreams. Your mind and body are doing the repair work. This is where deep healing occurs. Allow yourself to go to bed when you want to, and to wake up when you want to. Get rid of your alarm clock – you’ll be surprised how easily you wake up when you need to, feeling rejuvenated, relaxed and refreshed, ready for a new day.

• Laugh: all the way to the bank, in your car, during dinner. make people wonder what you are up to. Smile at strangers. Make eye contact. Make “I contact”.

• Have fun!

copyright kayla garnet rose 2008

Basic Numerology - Ones

2011-05-01T11:11:00.000-07:00

Tarot of the Mundane: One of Pentacles

Tarot of the Mundane: I. The Magician

1. Ones: (1)
Beginnings, origins, the self, creation, source, wholeness, unit, point, one in the midst of all, aloneness = all one-ness (Major arcana: I.The Magician, X. Change)

One of Blades: Plant New Seed Thoughts, Practice Beginners Mind

One of Wands: Fresh Sparks of Energy, Practice Sweeping Emotional Cobwebs

Tarot of the Mundane: X. Change

One of Vessels: New Emotional Beginnings, Practice Trust

One of Pentacles: New Physical Realities, Practice Stretching

I. Magician: Create your own reality, Practice what you preach

X. Change: Embrace change as a doorway to a more peaceful existence

Tarot of the Mundane: One of Blades


Tarot of the Mundane: One of Vessels


Tarot of the Mundane: One of Wands

On Not Listening

2011-04-29T09:46:00.000-07:00

I have been a member of various networking groups over the last few years now, an incredible way to grow my business, create new relationships, and yes, learn some lessons in listening. There was one woman in particular who I found to be perpetually annoying. She would raise her hand several times every meeting and ask questions in a loud, harsh voice, reminiscent of “Horseshack” from Welcome Back Kotter.
    I found myself resisting her energetically, taking a cue from other members, and it was easy to blow her off at first. I’d look away during her initial promotional; write myself notes during her monotonous presentations, using the time to tune out her repetitive monologue and create lists of things to do over the coming week.
    She became louder and louder over time, always interrupting other speakers, making inappropriate comments and off beat jokes when it was someone else’s turn. I found myself complaining about her after meetings - at breakfast with my colleagues, occasionally with clients, and even my kid would ask what annoying thing had occurred with her this week.
    At some point I realized what a drain of energy this was for me. I felt irritated every time she spoke, the proverbial cat being rubbed the wrong way, and quite certainly I was giving her no referrals. One of her power partners quit the group altogether, stating she could no longer stand the amount of contact they had outside the group, let alone in it.
    During one of our meetings, I noticed that she tended to sit exactly opposite me, no matter where I sat in the room. I decided that this was an opportunity to reflect upon this person as my mirror - when do I want attention? When do I act inappropriate or obnoxious? How could I find commonality with her incessant “pay attention to me” attitude and little girl antics? If we are all one and this was just another part of me, how could I love this part of myself?
    In our initial 60 seconds of silence before every meeting, I started to make lists in my head of 10 things we had in common. The first few were easy: We’re both women, in business, white, the same age, etc. then I had to start digging deeper. This was a great mental exercise, reminiscent of the work I had done in the past to “love my enemy and wish them happiness”.
    I also began to really pay attention during her first promotional, making eye contact, smiling, nodding my head in encouragement. I discovered that if I gave her my full focus for those 30 seconds, she wouldn’t bug me for the next hour and a half, let alone the whole week.
    And clearly it had an effect on her - on whatever level, conscious or subconscious, she noticed that someone was listening to her. She stopped doing all the extra gyrations to be noticed, and seemed calmer as time went by. As Eleanor Roosevelt says, "Everyone needs a good listening to."

Chiron in Pisces

2011-04-11T09:42:00.000-07:00

Last night so many memories came up - specifically about going to Paris with my mom in 1979 when we both had foot surgery at the same time. Waking up to indescribable pain, my mother crying and puking in her own bed, me unable to help, her pitifully calling out “Nurse, Nurse” *How stupid* I thought in my anesthetic haze*They only speak French here.*

    Within hours they made us walk, much to my horror, and we hobbled around the old hospital corridors on bruised and damaged feet. I remember seeing the black catgut caked in dried blood when it was time to replace the bandages.

    We shared a sugar cube, our only treat on a Saturday night, and read “Roots” over the next three days. I think my dad visited once, leaving us the Volvo so we could drive home. Why didn’t we take the train? Money? Driving from Paris to Luxembourg is a 5 hour trip, compounded by a trucker strike that effectively halted their version of a beltway.

    The story goes that I navigated my mother through the city streets, but I remember little. Eventually we stopped for gas, and I asked my mom to buy me a Pierrot doll at the souvenir stand, the first in what was to become quite the collection. I so identified with being seen as the clown, the entertainment system, wearing a happy face when really I was crying on the inside.

    I was crippled, using crutches over the next six weeks, my feet kept in tight bandages for nearly a year. I did not realize at the time that I would never ice skate again, the one thing I felt good at, the one thing I enjoyed. That fall I left for boarding school in England, limping along, the surgery declared ‘unsuccessful’ and the doctors prescribing future operations.

    Almost thirty years later, my mother has had numerous surgeries since, including removing both bone spurs and tumors that grew around undissolved catgut. I have done acupuncture to break up stagnation in the scar tissue and to release the traumatic emotions, but I still feel an ache in my foot bones after Zumba and before it rains.

    There was a wounding my faith that day - faith in my parents, faith in doctors, faith that this would make things better instead of worse. Like the little mermaid, I awoke that day to not just destined to walk on broken glass, but to have my voice taken away.

    My parents didn’t abandon me - they had me “choose” to go to boarding school when I felt I had no other options. I remember how homesick I was the next few years, how I longed to have my parents call, to write me a letter, to find some assurance of connection. Always praised for independence and stoicism, I turned more and more inward, spiraling into a typical teenage depression that I still struggle with today. Only in my twenties, when I first started studying astrology, did I discover that Chiron, the wounded healer, was in Pisces, sign of faith and rules the feet, when I was born.

    I don’t remember the pre-surgery details, the way i remember the anesthesia routine before I had my adenoids out a few years previously. but I do remember the night before we checked into the hospital, walking along the boulevard with Mom, going faster and faster, trying to keep up with her longer legs and wider stride, until finally my mom asked me to slow down. “Slow down?” I asked, “I’m trying to keep up with you!”

Elements of Tarot: Fire

2011-04-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

Fire:

Wands, Rods, Staffs, Flames, Diamonds
Sparks, Matches, Candles, Hearths, Forest Fires, Volcanoes, Novas

Energetic plane:

Creative, Artistic, Passion, Play,

Vitality, Loyalties, Conflict, Competition, Drive,

Action, Growth, Power

Key Word:

I will

Suggested Ritual:

Candle Magic

Candles are powerful as you can both burn away energy as well as invite in energy. Always start with a fresh candle - throw half burned candles away, guilt free. Choose a candle size proportionate to your needs - a 2 hour mini spell candle is pretty different from a seven day novena. Choose a color appropriate to the situation - black tends to dispel energy, while white may purify and cleanse. A basic chakra chart can help you choose the right color for your focus.

Infuse the candle with you intention. Take a moment to notice what are the things that you wish for. Inscribe them on the candle with a pen, pencil or athame as what you will for. For example, if you wish for a million dollars, write "I will earn/receive/have a million dollars". "I wish I was healthy" becomes "I will be healthy."

Anoint the candle, either by simply running you hand along it or by using an aromatherapy oil. ***NOTE that candles anointed with oil WILL BURN FASTER and HOTTER. Use precautions. NEVER leave a lit candle unattended.

Note that writing/anointing the candle from the base to tip invokes energy to be released as the candle burns away. Writing/anointing from top to bottom invites energy. It's fine to both on a single candle, both releasing energy and invoking beneficial energy to fill that particular void.

Decide when, where, and how often to light your candle. Once until it's gone? One a day for a month? Every full/new moon? Whenever you're working on a particular project? Or you can use this ritual to bless a series of candles that can than be used as gifts for friends and family.

Blessed be.

Listen in the Moment

2011-03-29T09:34:00.000-07:00

There is much to listen to, here, now, this moment - logs being piled up by the fireplace, a short exasperated sigh to my left, the hum of the heater, whispers of encouragement as the kindling takes the flame. I'm on a silent retreat with a dozen or so other writers, up in Point Reyes, California.
    Breakfast was a pleasant mish mash labeled “Australian Casserole” - I give thanks for hot food on this chilly day. I notice the Christian books for sale, a poster on symbolism I’d like to study later, a jigsaw puzzle of cats and easter eggs that looks completely out of place in this parish hall. In the lost and found I find a four inch horse shoe nail - symbol for Jesus on the cross? I’ll have to google it later.
    I sat with my coffee earlier, looking out the window as a tiny sparrow flicked through the bushes. Yesterday I noticed blackberries when I parked the car, and now I wish I had photographed the mist lying in the redwoods instead of pressuring myself to reach the retreat house.
    The ride up was fast and much shorter than I expected, giving me an extra hour before check in. Going through Oakland the traffic was hairy but I smiled at the thought of making this trail to Berkeley to have lunch with Amber when she goes to college in a few years.
    Amber - dear sweet Amber - the aliens have kidnapped my child and replaced her with a hormonal beast. I need to reread How To Talk So Your Kids Will Listen... I don’t take it personally - her crankiness, complaining, stomping around - but it wears me out and I wonder how to help her channel her energies. I find it baffling - she cried more over her T-shirt turning pink in the laundry than when her beloved cat died, calling her other mom and posting her woes on Facebook.
    I feel inefficient and ill equipped in these moments. I try to remain serene, a calming presence in the midst of her emotional storm. I recognize my own lessons here, trying to not take on her moods or feel like I have to fix her - though maybe I need to separate out the whites in the wash a bit better. listening to her slam around her room has me clenching my jaw and wondering how to communicate - better me than a couples counselor or divorce lawyer in the future. I wonder if she knows how much she makes me cry.
    In the moment, listening to myself, I hear what all mother’s wonder - was I present? Did I do the right thing? could I have done anything different? In the moment, I hear a voice say, “It’s all going to be all right.”

Elements of Tarot: Water

2011-03-25T09:37:00.000-07:00

Water:

Tarot Symbols: Cups, Vessels, Cauldrons, Shells, Hearts
Rain, Wells, Rivers, Lakes, Dams, Oceans, Storms

Emotional plane:

Feelings, Intuition, Dreams, Childhood, Early memories

Subconscious messages, Nurturing, Relationships,

The need to give and receive, Flow, Receptivity

Key Word:

I feel

Suggested Ritual:

Ice Cube Magic

Each of the elements may be expressed in one of three modalities: cardinal (starts things), fixed (stabilizes) or mutable (changes). Ice cubes are in essence fixed water (Scorpio in astrology) and represent fixed emotions. Whether you feel fixated on the past, obsessed with changing the present, or fully focused on the future, ice cube magic may ease your way.

Take an ice cube from the freezer. Grab a permanent marker: black, blue or red ink work best. Write on the ice cube anything you want to see dissolve, shift, or change: grief, jealousy, stress, debt, taxes, the name of an ex-lover, your boss, cancer, etc. If the tip freezes, it's okay, you can imagine invisible ink or switch to using your athame or a sharp knife to scratch in the word(s).

Put it on a small plate, preferably in the sun. You can sit and watch the ice cube dissolve, noticing all the emotions that well up in your being and dissolve through tears. Or you can go out and do something completely else - the spell will be working in your subconscious the whole time.

Now, what to do with your melted emotions. You can pour the water down the toilet, flushing it completely away. You can pour it on an outside plant, allowing new growth to emerge. Be creative, yet keep it simple; invite ease and flow into your life.

Blessed be.

Astro Chat for Sun in Aries

2011-03-21T10:35:00.000-07:00

Uranus, planet of revolution and liberation, moves into Aries, sign of the warrior maiden, Calafia, whom California is named after. The earth shook, tsunami's swept the ocean, and a core meltdown occurred. Where has this been true in your personal life? Notice the outpouring of humanity, the ways in which we have pulled together as nations as well as neighbors. Now is the time to examine core beliefs, as new truths upset old paradigms. Choose to be a hero rather than a victim, and feel empowered by the planets to walk the path of the peaceful warrior.

Uranus is joined by Jupiter, the great magnifier, Mercury, the disperser of information, and of course the Sun, illuminating our soul's to discover their true purpose. Plant the seeds of love, the seeds peace, the seeds of change, and of course every one's favorite, seed money....

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Aries: After slogging through the emotional mud slide, you reach dry land. You can take off running again. What will assist your self actualization? If you've been a follower, become a leader, & vice versa.
Taurus: You'll be attracted to something unusual or quirky, either out of your norm or your comfort zone. Let yourself feel the thrill of the unknown, and trust that this adventure will lead to self realization.

Gemini: There's little flames jumping out of your mouth, so sing your truth to rally up change, like grassroots singers bolstering up the unions. Your words inspire, infuse, recharge and even enrage some.

Cancer: Maybe you feel like you've been tossed in a pot of boiling water, or your ready to bust out of your shell. Self care is the best investment, so nourish your body, your skin, your hair, and then radiate.

Leo: This is the time to fire up and communicate your true nature, as the universe is calling upon you to expand your awareness. Taking others into consideration is an art. Take time to cultivate listening.

Virgo: Chiron, the wounded healer, has entered the temple of Pisces for the next 8 years. Whether you enter med school or begin a new work out routine, your health and consciousness improve.

Libra: Feel swept up in rip tides of emotions or more in flow with the currents of love? You might think the universe is being fickle when really it's flirting with you. Notice the buzz of bees and hum more.

Scorpio: The past come back in flashes of dreams, remembering buried half promises and unfulfilled relationships. What will satisfy you now? Tie up loose ends and feel foot loose and fancy free again.

Sagittarius: Flaming tempers and fiery foods might be on the menu, so pause to peruse your other emotional choices. Expand your passion and indulge in self care, join a team or volunteer. Energy abounds.

Capricorn: There is a big difference between being independent, codependent and interdependent. Recent events have left you sifting the acquaintances out from true friends. Hold onto the gold.

Aquarius: Laboring to rebirth yourself? Keep breathing as you develop your new form. Investigate new ways to tap even deeper into your psyche, knowing you can achieve anything you believe.

Pisces: They say water and electricity don't mix, but the truth us they are highly conducive to each other. You might feel jolted from your dream state. Use the surge of energy to stimulate your emotional intelligence.

What I Like to Listen To

2011-03-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

My lovers voice - I love listening to the rich tones, whether reading from a book of poetry or telling me about the day. It fills me with pleasure, an aural ambrosia.

My Self - The more I follow my own voices, the easier everything seems.

Music - radio, stereo, singing in the car, shower or while doing housekeeping. Sometimes while working, it is pleasing to have the companionship of human voices in my rather solitary environment.

My Clients - I love their stories. I never get bored. I love listening to their struggles and ultimately their solutions.

Nature - the sound of sea lions and the fog horn through the window at night, the splatter of rain on the windows, the soothing hum of tires on asphalt.

My heart - When I go deep and do my 3, 2, 1 meditation, I really listen to my heart and all it has to say in each of it’s four chambers, what it has to tell me right now.

My body - The pulse in my feet, the creak in my knees, the crack in my shoulders as I twist for relief. Each twinge and ache a message, a chance to respond, to take care of my self.

My cat’s purr - 'nuff said.

What do you like to listen to?

Listening Vs. Hearing

2011-02-28T09:38:00.000-08:00

Hearing is the sound of the radio driving my teenager to school in the morning.

Listening is actually paying attention to the lyrics, the tug on my memories as an emotion is recaptured, a certain rhythm or beat that seems to fluctuate with my own life blood.

I hear your words...

I listen to your eyes, your body, your fingers touching mine.

I hear your story...

I listen to the quality of your voice, the timbre and tempo, the courage it took to utter these words, the risk in revealing your more transparent needs.

I hear you say “I love you..."

I’m listening to your heart, your doubts, your fears, your hopes, your dreams.

Hearing is empathy.

Listening is compassion.

Do you hear me?

Are you listening right now?

Hearing is temporal.

Listening is eternal.

AstroChat for Sun in Pisces 2011

2011-02-20T11:30:00.000-08:00

There has been much talk about the 13th sign, Ophiuchus, and how it affects our astrological make up. Astrologers believe that when a star or planet comes to the attention of humanity that it is the right timing to integrate its meaning into the collective.

Here's a quote from a wonderful astrology book, Mythic Astrology, published in 1993, by Kenneth Johnson and Ariel Guttman, "Toward the end of Scorpio there is a constellation called Ophiuchus, pictured as a giant wresting with a serpent. The holder of the serpent is Asclepius, the healer and honor student of Chiron. Because this constellation was slightly off the ecliptic when the zodiac we now use was formed, it was not included as a sign. (In fact, Ophiuchus sits "above" Scorpio.) But because of the precession of the equinoxes, today the Sun spends more time in this constellation than it actually does in Scorpio. Thus, before we can finally emerge from Scorpio and enter into the light of Sagittarius, we must wrestle with this serpent, a process most...are familiar with, and one which each handles differently."

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Aries: Sing your truth, raise your voice in joy, and find harmony within, whether you belt it out in the shower or solo in the choir. How will you raise your vibration even further?

Taurus: Take pleasure in redecorating your home, reseeding your garden, and creating new alters. What would you like to improve now, in your health or wealth? Everything will change by spring.

Gemini: It's a mutable time, so use your silver tongue to inspire the flames of hope and have faith that your words can heal. How will you edit your own story? Remember, you are a myth in the making.

Cancer: Notice your budding health and the way a chick cracks through the egg. As you begin your taxes or spring cleaning, let go of the past with a sense of ease and grace. Welcoming fresh inspiration.

Leo: Go to dance church or take up gospel singing, anything to shake up your mind and body and return to the miracle of simple being alive. Are you breathing? Remember to make your exhales longer.

Virgo: Trust your gut instincts and check in with your body's messages through muscle testing or simple being aware of holding any stress or tension. What will make you feel more relaxed? Make lists.

Libra: Relationships are work, yes, it's true, so is making art, making a meal or making love. How can you focus more fully on each moment, each detail? Remember you are a co-creator of the universe.

Scorpio: Ask for that raise, rewrite that resume, submit that manuscript. What are your career goals? Take charge of your life and notice all your doubts dissolving while watching your confidence build.

Sagittarius: Fire meets fire and the flames grow higher. What is fueling your soul? Notice that anger is not sustainable. Discover creative ways to feed your passions and celebrate feeling vibrant.

Capricorn: Notice your adult patterns, and take a moment to trace your emotional ancestry. What legacies are worth continuing? What chains or limitation need to be broken? The whole world is your family.

Aquarius:Time for a vision quest, silent retreat or good long soak in the tub. What are your feet telling you? Get some new shoes, find your pace and discover a new path. True worship starts within.

Pisces: What happens when shifting emotions meet a fixed idea? Like taking the time to admire every facet of a polished diamond, allow your whole being to reflect every part of your brilliant essence.

Change Comes

2011-01-30T09:46:00.000-08:00

2011-01-20T08:32:00.000-08:00

Santa Cruz Astrology with Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT

Aquarius is fixed air. What is fixed air you might ask? Think of the atmosphere, surrounding the earth, giving life to the whole planet. Fixed air reminds us to breathe, to inhale and to exhale, taking all that you need that would serve you, and really letting go of anything that longer is useful any more.

We often see a woman pouring water down into the earth as the symbol for Aquarius. Esoterically speaking this represents our thirst for knowledge. Aquarius is a sign of the inquiring mind. What are you inquiring about? Aquarius is also ruled by Uranus, which has a completely different orbit that any of the other planets. It is the wild card, the joker, coyote. Remember to laugh at yourself now, for all the ways we self sabotage or trick ourselves into new growth.

The glyph for Aquarius looks like 2 waves over each other, again which looks like water. Think more of currents of electricity, lightning bolts of inspiration or the light bulb of invention, that feeling of a ha and being jolted from old reality to a new paradigm.

What do you want to do now to really get ready for spring? Focus on setting feasible goals and realistic intentions, and welcome the unexpected blossoms after a long winter.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Chart for Sun in Aquarius, Santa Cruz

Aries: Expect the unexpected. It is an unusual time and you'll find you felt attracted to unusual people in unusual circumstances. Put down your sword and shield and pick up a pen instead.

Taurus: You are in the fire of change. Allow yourself to be the phoenix and discover what it is that truly sparks your deepest passion. Now is the time for you to recognize your higher mind.
Gemini: Start talking to your body. Talk about your health and all that you would like to improve in this coming year. Remember, don't just talk about it- make a clear plan of action, and do it!
Cancer: Winter can feel specially cold for my cancer friends, so make sure that there's no cracks in your shell. What would you like to do now to reclaim your vulnerability as your greatest strength?

Leo: Recognize where you are grounded firmly on the earth. Claim thunder as your power. You're longing for the summer. Where will you take a stand now? Take your pride in your chosen family.

Virgo: Dear Virgo, you know that you can only serve others after you have serve yourself first. Let go and tend to your needs, hibernate a little. Seek out something that you have never tried before.

Libra: To my Libra friends-This is a great time to travel whether you go to different places or to travel in your mind. What would you like to do now to expand your social world? Invite optimism along.

Scorpio: Pay clear attention right now to all the places in your body that need more flexibility, and all the spaces in your life that need a little bit more structure. Try yoga, breathing and meditate.
Sagittarius: Look around and see what it is that needs evolve. Where would you like to be more in touch with your beautiful emotions so that you can create confident change? Enjoy expanding to your deeper self.
Capricorn: Capricorn, as you clear your emotional clutter, feel release like a breath of fresh air. Where would you like to go, like a seed in the wind? Allow yourself to feel the pollinator and pollinated.

Aquarius: It's time to stop being in the mud and allow yourself to become a tidal wave. Use your emotions to shift and change whatever it is that will make you feel innovative renewed and energized.
Pisces: Questioning everything? Now is the time to combine science and faith. Notice what would you like to explore and what process can you use to experiment with your deeper intuitive practices.

The Heart That Rejoices

2011-01-11T11:11:00.000-08:00

Each Condition

2010-12-30T09:09:00.000-08:00

AstroChat for Sun in Capricorn

2010-12-20T18:54:00.000-08:00

AstroChat for Sun in Capricorn 2010-2011

Open me up—That I might receive,
Open me up—That I might believe,
Oh, Great Spirit—I'm calling to you, I'm calling to you...

Oh, Great Spirit—What else can I do, what else can I do?
-Traditional

Happy Solstice and welcome to a cluster of planets in Capricorn. Sign of the goat, Capricorn sees a mountain, climbs it, then sees another one. What are your ambitions? What valleys will you descend into in order to come out the top on the other side? The stars are here as your guide.

Light up the winter's darkest night with your own sweet soul, shining so bright. Take care of your body, your home, your garden. Sit in the sun every chance you can, and if you can't, get a sun lamp or at least halogen bulbs. Take St. John's Wort and extra Vitamin D if you feel the winter blue's, and allow yourself all the sleep and deep relaxation you need.

Mercury retrograde all through December has us reviewing our words more than once, and even though we know to take nothing personally, we are persons who are experiencing very real frustrations. Take it out on your journal or your pillow, rather than your loved ones. Know that they are going through this too- what ritual can you do together to release the tension? Write down all of the year's disappointments and burn them together in a fire. Make way for the New Year by setting your intentions to work together in cooperation and harmony.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Aries: What are your new commitments for the coming year? Take a moment to reflect upon your emotions, and tap into the moon's energy to fulfill all of your heartfelt ambitions. I believe in you!

Taurus: How will you harmonize your emotional self with achieving your desires? Remember to value yourself deeply, and never doubt you deserve the very best. Go deep and reap the rewards by Spring.

Gemini: What are you doing to feed your head? rather than creating soap opera for your mind to feel occupied, challenge yourself to try something completely different, humanitarian, and fun.

Cancer: Feeling stuck between your shell and a hard place? Crack open your sense of humor and find the strength in being vulnerable, the sacred in the mundane. Nourish yourself as much as those around you.

Leo: What will peak your interest this winter, oh Leo? Put on a song and dance, show the world your charm and grace, and humble yourself before the applause. Everyone loves you and the Universe is encouraging you.

Virgo: Whether in a fog of pain or painkillers, realize where you are the source of your own distress. Stop saying "if" and start saying "when" especially in terms of your health and financial well being.

Libra: There is a hidden opportunity for more energy, but only if you act on it now. What s holding you back? Tap into your eagle vision-swoop into the details as well as getting perspective on your soul.

Scorpio: Where do you want to go this lifetime? The Universe is shining a light and it is up to you whether to get lost in the shadows or to transform your darkest fears. Tap into your Phoenix self.

Sagittarius: What are you talking about? Notice the need for communication. Distinguish between deep listening and excessive gabbing. No need to be a conversation hog. Share authentically to develop philosophy.

Capricorn:Feeling the tension between your desires and your emotions? How can you constructively combine the two? Remember, you are the master builder, especially when to comes to relationships. Network more.

Aquarius: Maybe you feel like your soul's purpose has been under the microscope, or your right livelihood under review. What have you discovered? How will you apply this? Remember, as above, so below.

Pisces: Like shafts of sunlight streaming into the sea, there s a hidden opportunity for you to stimulate your deepest self. Cosmic photosynthesis is happening now, so unfurl your soul and welcome the light.

She Changes

2010-12-15T09:09:00.000-08:00

Romance is Imperative

2010-11-30T09:07:00.000-08:00

Church of Zumba

2010-11-29T18:12:00.000-08:00

There is an inexpressible joy
An ecstasy in rhythmic movement
I call this my
Smiler-cize

My body is wordless
yet knows all the lyrics
the steps well
before my mind

I quench a deeper thirst each time
I make the decision to be here
in Church of Zumba
arms stretched, heart pounding
My hips Salsa, my feet Cumbia
Here is my sacred community

The hardwood floors preserve
The stomps and punches
of the kick boxers before us
The mirrors reflect
Our personal goals

We create conversations of sweat
dialogs and choruses as we
move in sync, discovering
our individual movements
even as we dance as one

Warm up, cool down
So much repetition
So different every time

Each week there are us regulars
and the brave neophytes
A fluctuating tribe of women
learning to love
the strength
in their bodies, the glory
of perspiration

In this moment we are Shakira
Madonna, Lady Gaga, every Las Vegas showgirl
We are fluid and flexible
we clap our hands and sigh
With relief, stretching our tendons
lengthening our breath

We pour out into the parking lot
Waving goodbyes, drinking more water
This holy moment directs my day, my week
long after
My purifying shower.

October 2010

Listening to Silence

2010-11-23T18:06:00.000-08:00

I love listening to Silence. She is a friend of mine. Never a gossip or a chatterbox, we are quite comfortable together. I usually pick her up at the High School after dropping off my teenager, giving her a ride back into town, the sound of the wheels on the freeway and the hum in my head join our quiet chorus.

    We live well together, Silence & I, in the times my daughter is at her other parents’, the times my lover is at his place. We move through the house together, fussing over the angle of a photograph, the feng shui of a chair. With the stealth of the cat, we pad around, tying back the curtains we agree on sunlight and plenty fresh air.

    My lover is jealous of us, feels threatened by Silence, always trying to come between us, trying to fill the gaps with conversation, fearful that I am somehow bored with him and thus courting Silence. But these are the moments when I feel truly at peace, listening to the hum of the tires as the landscape flicks by, the bubbling of morning coffee before we talk about our dreams, the sound of his breath before gently falling asleep.

    We often have lunch with my Dad, who accepts Silence as my chosen companion, and the three of us are relaxed together in the busy cafe. There is no need to impress each other, to discuss the quality of light, the taste of feta and cranberries in our harvest salads, the feel of the plastic tables pretending to be made of wood. We have already reached consensus in sharing our time together, in noticing the lady wearing her slippers with just an arch of an eyebrow.

    Silence has much to say to me. She whispers in my ear, she whispers in my heart, and she holds all of my secrets safe. I listen attentively, a good pupil, always the student, never the master, as I easily live up to my nick name Rambling Rose, trying to validate oh so clumsily in the places where Silence remains simply, sweetly, softly eloquent.

October 2010

Astrochat for Sun in Sagittarius

2010-11-19T11:45:00.000-08:00

When we sit in silence we become our own monastery - Jack Kornfield

Find some quiet time during this holiday season. It could be as simple as waking up five minutes earlier, taking a bath instead of a shower, or going for a walk around the block. Balance out the intensity of family with the comfort of familiarity. Notice the dog doesn't mind that it's dark, the cat is always ready for your lap. These are times for creative contemplation which act as cat naps for the soul during the seasonal hustle and bustle.

Venus and Neptune both have turned direct, and we feel forward motion in our relationships, our dreams, our ideals being met. Mercury will be going retrograde throughout most of December, so buy those holiday gifts early and fly through the season like a well waxed sled on fresh snow.

Take a moment to reinforce your own psychic boundaries and let any criticism slide off like water on a ducks back. There is a certain amount of tension in the air from Jupiter conjunct Uranus squaring Mars, Mercury, and the Sun in Sagittarius, all the more reason to use humor as the ultimate diplomatic tool.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: Time to lay down that sword and shield, and seek the ways of the peaceful warrior now. Speak your truth gently, and with fire. Expand your heart, your family, your communication skills and give thanks.

Taurus: After reviewing what you value in relationships and what relationships are valuable to you, remember to keep what is worth keeping, and with the breath of kindness, blow the rest away. Feel blessed.

Gemini: Talk about what you are learning right now. Spread the word of good teachers, classes, workshops. You are a valuable in disseminating of information. Use your networks to create a vaster intelligence.

Cancer: Try not to pendulum swing between your emotions. Invite into your being a fusing of duality and change each frustration into a humorous learning experience. Laugh about it, blog about it, let it go.

Leo: Watch those flaming hoops, Leo, and let yourself be the ring master rather than the performer this holiday season. Dust off that top hat and orchestrate family gatherings with the highest harmony.

Virgo: What will rejuvenate your spirit during these holiday times? We know how great your are at serving others, how about serving yourself? I'm not just talking about pie. Be gracious in receiving thanks.

Libra: Sometimes you feel fickle at heart, so allow yourself to be fussy about all the final details. Be discerning rather than judgmental, and know you are stepping into a period of refinement and improvement.

Scorpio: The dragon's head is rearing up in your heart. Now is the time to assess your fortune. Do you stay clenching the treasure in the middle of the mountain? Fly free, breathing fire into the imagination.

Sagittarius: Expand your mind and recognize that will power is a muscle that needs to be exercised daily. You are brilliant, shiny, and more people love you than you know. Keep creating good habits, they will serve.

Capricorn: Honor your mother and father, no matter what your actual relationship is like, or how it was in the past. Create an altar to your ancestors - Google archetypal images to replace anything archaic.

Aquarius: Thirsty for knowledge and a new daily practice? if you're bored of your old prayers, go ahead and try some new ones. Zumba, belly dance, Pilates, yoga - choose a physical regime to strengthen spirit.

Pisces: While shying from the lime light, there is a hidden attraction you are deeply contemplating now. This will bring self knowledge and mutual empowerment. Consider the third person involved. Blessings.

next time

2010-11-16T17:57:00.000-08:00

next time

bring a sippy cup
a warm shawl
a flash light

bring less stuff
less to do
nap more

October 2010

Risk to Bloom

2010-11-15T09:06:00.000-08:00

What My Heart Tells Me

2010-11-09T17:47:00.000-08:00

What My Heart Tells Me

    My heart tells me: Thank you, thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for nourishing and exercising me. it makes my job so much easier. I love being your heart. I love bringing all that rich, oxygenated blood up to your brilliant brain and down to your twinkly toes. I love taking away all the carbon dioxide/ the lactic acid, the emotional toxins out of your system. I love being in the center of your body, the center of your being.

    I feel safe in your chest. I feel safe having your ribs gently encircling me, giving me room to breathe, room to grow.

    There are times when I felt battered and bruised, tired and sad, overburdened or just plain stressed. Thank you for taking the time to tend to my wounds, to listen to my woes, to fill me with morsels of hope.

    There are times when I have overjoyed, full of optimism, excitement and enthusiasm. I love being in love and I love the way I expand in your chest when you expand in trust instead of contracting in fear.

    I am your loyal heart. I am always here for you and you can always count on me. Thank you for taking the time to pray with me, to play with me, and above all, thank you for listening to me.

October 2010

Power of the Mother

2010-10-30T10:30:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Scorpio 2010

2010-10-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Scorpio 2010

The road to success is always under construction. (-Chinese Proverb)

Days are getting shorter, nights are getting chillier, there's a crisp smell in the air as our feet crunch the dead leaves scattering the sidewalks. Kids are getting ready for their favorite night of the year, and now is the time to look at the masks you wear.

Scorpionic energy abounds as the Sun is conjunct Mercury, Venus, and Mars, all clustered together like the gossips at the well, the hags around the cauldron. The power of the spoken word to cause harm is very much in the air, as seen by the tragic suicides by gay youth after being continuously harassed and bullied. We all have the capacity to manipulate and power play, so choose to empower others and remain in alignment with your deeper values, morals, and ethics.

Venus retrograding through Scorpio also allows us to review not just our dirty laundry but our psychic lingerie. What makes you feel super sexy? What ignites your romantic passion? Remember, nothing is more attractive than desire.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: Struggling with an old habit or addiction? Now is the time to build up your WILL POWER by changing your wishful thinking into willful thinking, your dreams into reality. Enjoy feeling awake and alert.

Taurus: "Change comes very slow and very sudden." - Dorothy Bryant. What has been a long time in the making is now taking form, allowing you to discover a sweeter life in greener pastures. Savor every moment.

Gemini: Be careful with spreading information, your network is vaster than you realize. Live by the words, "Whatever you say, is it necessary, truthful or kind?" You have the opportunity to really shine now.

Cancer: Use a scrying mirror (made of obsidian/black glass) to reflect upon creating a future free of the past. Deep in your tender a heart a small miracle is growing. Let go of being overprotective by trust.

Leo: What has the head of a dragon and the tail of the lion? Now is the time to combine the energies of all your mythical beasts and totem animals to express your unique individuality. Study the Chimera.

Virgo: How will you change your greatest wounds into your greatest gifts? Now is the time to become your own champion, advocate, hero instead of victim. Encourage yourself by acknowledging accomplishments.

Libra: Dive deep in your communications. Take the risk to speak your truth, knowing you will be heard. What do you need to say? Time to transform old patterns and to express the full range of your being.

Scorpio: Right now there is a hidden opportunity that will be revealed to you only briefly. How will you respond? Look deep into your heart and soul. Phoenix from the flame, this is the time to rebirth yourself.

Sagittarius: There's a watery fire running in your veins, you might boil over or run hot these days. Choose to power a locomotive rather than erupting like a volcano. Have you thought about nonviolent communication?

Capricorn: The most important relationship is the one with yourself. What good things are you doing for yourself now? Be kind and gentle, treat your self with kid gloves, move with extra care and deliberation.

Aquarius: Pay particular attention to your dreams during this cosmic, watery time. Deeper urges from the past are beginning to resurface, revealing your core truths and real identity. Choose to give your gifts.

Pisces: Take a moment to honor whale medicine, your ancestral memories. Sing your soul song, and connect with the stars. Notice the surge of your desires, personal tides, ride the waves and discover treasures.

Love and Pleasure

2010-10-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

Manifest Your Reality

2010-09-30T09:03:00.000-07:00

Sun and Moon Tarot

2010-09-23T14:20:00.000-07:00

In the name of the Maiden, Mother and Crone

I'm here by myself - And I am never alone...

-kgr

I shuffle the cards over and over, stiff little boards in my hands, the cool gray and white lotus on a black background a stark contrast to the flashes of color as the satisfying sound of the cards rippling through my hands fills my peaceful, sun-filled living room. It is the harvest moon, a time of abundance, time of balance as we move into Libra and notice the fall equinox, the shifting light, the changing tides.

Today I am playing with The Sun and Moon Tarot by Vanessa Decourt, recently published by US Games Systems. After splitting the deck into three piles with my left hand (coming from my heart), I then reorder them into one pile with my right hand (using my head). I pull the first card with both hands, my finger tips arguing with each other as I tip the cards back and forth, back and forth, until finally they are in agreement that this is the one.

I'm employing the Motherpeace Spread and the first card is the significator, the here and now, the present moment. The ace of pentacles appears, an auspicious beginning. A gray shield with a pentacle in the middle surrounded by a geometric, almost floral design is surrounded by curling ivy in a deep mustard yellow background, a downward facing triangle with a line through it graces the top.

My first impressions arise: Aces are the top card, as well as the beginning - here is the alpha and the omega. Ivy is know for it's tenacity, the ability to stick to something for the long term. Pentacles represent the physical plane, and I ponder my health, my house, my business. Part of me feels protected, like the pod of the seed. Part feels ready to unfold, after being planted, nourished by both a rain of tears as much as the shine of smiles.

The deep yellow puts me in touch with the third chakra- the solar plexus, center of will and power, ruled by Leo and the shining sun. I post on Twitter: The Harvest Moon reminds us to harvest our abundance, and plant the seeds of change, seeds of hope, and seeds of love. I ponder the last symbol, the male principle, split in two - a balance between head and heart? Or what I seem to need the most, a balance between the higher mind and the so called lower desires?

I pull the next cards rapidly, some with the left hand, some with the right, sometimes using both, most are reversed, to my surprise. I enjoy the images tremendously - simple, faceless beings engage in archetypal moments, the colors are fairly soft and muted, the lessons feel gentle and kind. There is a modern element to this deck (stripes come to mind, from stripy shirts to stripy socks), as well as an element of timelessness, found in dancing figure of Shakti in the universe card or the ace of swords being crowned in gold.

The second card is ten of cups, satiety, upside down - how is NOT feeling satisfied my source of strength now? Next I get three of wands, virtue, as my challenge - how am I being loyal, to myself and others. At the root of my being is three of pentacles, what Decourt names as works, and on my sky/mind is the devil, again reversed - hallelujah! certainly over the last few years I have worked on looking my demons in the eye and creating alliances instead of enemies. Ace of swords graces my immediate past while prince of pentacles dominates my future. The bull looks stuck, stubborn in this card, but I instantly go back to the ivy in my significator, the lesson of tenacity. No coincidence that my present lover has Taurus on the 7th house.

My mirror card is king of wands, as I master my own energies, become the master of my desires; while in my house the four of pentacles appear, that desire for stability on the physical planes, creating sand castles on the beach, and The Universe expresses my hopes and fears.

My last card has a man and a woman embracing on a white lotus under the full moon, their quiet reflection shimmering in the water as they whisper heartfelt secrets to each other. My outcome for the coming year: Two of cups- love, sweet love.

Blessed be.

No longer the slave to intensity

I am now the face of satisfied desire.

-Rumi

AstroChat for Sun in Libra 2010

2010-09-19T12:44:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Libra 2010

Daily Affirmation: Let my lessons be more gentle; Let my teachers be kinder.

The full moon in Aries has us balancing our individual needs within the collective. Now is the time to develop who you are as a unique individual while acknowledging both what it is you contribute to your community as well as how the community can support your process.

The rings around Saturn represent certain real restrictions in life. Saturn conjunct the Sun in Libra creates the experience of looking at where do we feel limits as well as where do we need good boundaries in our relationships,with family and friends as well as colleagues and coworkers. With Pluto continuing to square Saturn, we are challenged to discover where we try to control people as well as where we feel manipulated by others.

Mercury in Virgo is sextile both Venus and Mars, encouraging us to communicate both are deepest desires and what is that we want to attract into our life. Both Venus and Mars in Scorpio are also sextile Pluto, and although change may feel glacier slow at times, truly new valleys and mountains are being created in the landscape of our souls.
Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: Dance like a gypsy queen in the light of the silver moon. Take a moment to reconnect with your hips, belly, and core strength. Consider taking Pilates, yoga, or Zumba. What do you need to integrate?

Taurus: What makes you feel beautiful? Put rings on your fingers and bells on your toes. This is the time to weave ribbons of light into your hair. Take joy and pleasure in your body, health, and well being.

Gemini: You might find yourself talking about health or finding new ways to express yourself in a healthy way. Consider Nonviolent Communication or a Silent Retreat. Who is encouraging your process? Journal more.

Cancer: Feeling a little fired up? Spin poi, swallow swords or just have a late autumn bonfire. Maybe you went to Burning Man, maybe you are a simmering woman, either way tend to your chicken soup for the soul.

Leo: Even the lone wolf has a life mate. If you choose to not run with the pack, notice feeling connected to the trees, the earth, the whizzing stars. Who would you like to invite to go howl at the moon?

Virgo: "Speak to the Queen and the Queen will answer" This Norwegian proverb reminds you to cultivate your beauty, power and honor. Stop being a Lady-in-Waiting. Your time to shine is now. Crown your self.

Libra: Happy Birthday! Cosmic rays are flooding your being with golden molecules of deepest understanding. Reconnect with your soul's purpose and live your life with intention. Be the diplomat in all things.

Scorpio: Be the teacher handing out gold stars. Lavish praise is your strongest tool right now, beginning with your self. Take a moment to kiss your self on both cheeks. What workshop for the soul will you do?

Sagittarius: You are a comet shooting across the night sky. What will inspire your higher mind? The sacred is always found in the mundane. Spend time cultivating compassion with children, pets, and garden critters.

Capricorn: Remember you are a human being, not a human doing. You are busy creating a structure for the soul to dwell, balance it with rest and recreation. Reconnect with your life's purpose. Who's on your side?

Aquarius: Are you a spiritual thrill seeker? Wondering how to go deeper into life's meaning and purpose? You are like the whale, diving deep and coming up for air. Sing your song and evoke ancient memories.

Pisces: Now is the time to study The Fool card from the tarot. How can you evoke the joker? It's a free wheeling time full of tricks and treats. Prepare for the unexpected adventure. The cosmos is giggling.

Join Hands

2010-09-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

It Was a Gift

2010-08-30T08:58:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Virgo 2010

2010-08-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Virgo 2010

"You have a right to experiment with your life. You will make mistakes. And they are right too."

~Anais Nin

Mercury retrograde in Virgo has reviewing our concepts of wholeness, integrety, and being of service. You know how on airplane safety instructions they alwas say to put on your oxygen mask before helping your kid? It is so important to take care of yourself first. Notice the places where ou have been selfless in the past, and where you have been less of your self. Let go of concepts that you are being too selfish - think of it as being self-full instead.

It is Lammas, time of the unexpected gift. Who would you like to surprise? In the tarot, the Strength card shows gentle Virgo touching Leo, reminding us to combine our animal nature/deepest desires with our purest intentions. What are your creative outlets for fun? Incorporate more art into your daily life, whether drawing, painting, taking photos or visiting galleries for inspiration.

There is a T-square between Pluto (transform or die), Jupiter (expansion in the social world), and Saturn (the great teacher). Like Athena being born whole from Zeus’ head, notice what ideas are now becoming manifest. Invoke Owl medicine to watch out for your blind spots.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: What do you desire most in your relationships? How can you find yourself reflected in the needs of others? Now is the time to develop constructive co operations to experience passion, creativity, life.
Taurus: What are you hanging on to? Where do you need completion? Time to develop new paradigms of relationship. Move from codependent to inter-dependent. Trust yourself and begin to trust the process itself.

Gemini: Review your thought process. Question. What will lead to healthier communication? How can you create a dialog with your body? All the answers are at your fingertips. Take time to listen to yourself.

Cancer: You are a spiritual being in a physical body. What is your soul contract with yourself? What commitment to well being and happiness are you willing to pledge? Choose health as your greatest investment.

Leo: How will you liberate the artist within? What are you doing that is creative, fun and joyful? Let go of emotional addictions and debauchery - you know you deserve much more. step up to bat and swing!

Virgo: I know you're talking to your Self, but are you listening? While unicorns are real, where have you been deluding yourself? Bolster loyalty by focusing on your heart chakra. You know you deserve better.

Libra: Yes, oh yes, oh yes. Relationship is the greatest teacher, and you are getting gold stars left and right. Combine attraction and desire to create the workshop you need to develop your deepest self.

Scorpio: Maybe it's not easiest of times, but it certainly is exciting. Where have you compromised yourself? Notice where you have given away your identity for security. What you resist, persists, so be honest.

Sagittarius: Disappointed? Weed out what is not working, nip that bud, create that change. There is plenty of time, and every moment counts, but you will feel more fulfilled if you do it sooner rather than later.
Capricorn:Feeling tension in your relationships? Regulate stress just like tuning a guitar or getting an oil change. All these pressures serve to keep you engaged, proactive and responsive instead of reactive.

Aquarius: Sliding back into your comfort zone after experiencing something new? Where would you like to have a fresh start, some authentic enthusiasm? A missed opportunity will occur again - will you grab it?

Pisces: Integrate esoteric, ancient wisdom with a new way of being. Where do you thirst for new knowledge? How will the past provide the answers? Study history, yours and the worlds, to create your future.

Behind Every Getrude is Alice

2010-08-15T08:57:00.000-07:00

A Quest for Vision

2010-08-03T15:57:00.000-07:00

I decided I needed to reward my self after finishing a final exam. I knew that sushi would be somewhere in the picture, but as it was still fairly early in the afternoon, I decided to go for hike up to Land of Medicine Buddha. My daughter had gone to Tara Redwoods for grade school, which is located on the grounds of this Buddhist retreat, and since it's quite close to my office, I go there quite often to meditate on my lunch breaks.

I have been just loving the course in Vision Therapy, and much like the Aromatherapy class, knew that this was something I wanted to use for myself right away. I first began wearing glasses in 6th grade, and like most people, have seen an increase in my prescription over the years. Currently I wear lenses with a power of -3.00 in the right eye and -3.25 in the left. I switched to contacts in 10th grade, and wore them consistently for the next 20 years. Indeed, my motto for a long time was, “Home is were the contact lens case is."

I switched back to wearing glasses full time about five years ago. About 3 or 4 months ago I went to my optician for a new set, feeling that I was having a hard time reading, and figuring that since I am in my 40’s it was probably due to macular degeneration i.e. old age. The doctor said my prescription had changed so minimally, it was not worth getting a new prescription, but instead he encouraged me to simply stop wearing my glasses when reading, as I am near sighted.

As soon as I started the unit, I began taking my glasses off in earnest. There are no coincidences, and the timing was perfect for me to practice vision therapy for myself. I found The Power Behind Your Eyes: Improving Eyesight with Integrative Vision Therapy by Robert-Michael Kaplan extremely interesting and useful, but a little disorganized. I enjoyed many of the written activities, and wrote out the exercises in my journal. I illustrated these with a colorful drawings, for example one that showed my third eye opening. Next, I created a spreadsheet with 12 categories with space for notes for 14 days. My intention was not to do necessarily do every one every day, but to experiment with the different exercises and create a system to observe the results.

I beaded an eye glass chain to make it easier for me to switch back and forth from my prescribed vision to naked vision. I started with fifteen minute increments, usually while studying, and gradually increased to a few hours (cumulative) a day. I began to challenge myself more by walking the half hour to my dance classes with no glasses on, observing my internal state as I negotiated streets and cross walks. I noticed feeling internally softer as I experienced the blur, as well as a softening of my facial muscles. I felt like I was not wearing my social mask, but instead felt really relaxed and unconcerned about other people and their perceptions of me. I also found myself less worried about the mundane details of life (paying bills, returning calls, picking up kids, etc.) and more enjoying the moment, discovering how much more I really could see than I had expected. I felt safe and grounded, never in any danger. Not that I’m ready to drive with no glasses, but this was certainly the proverbial eye opener as to the extent in which my glasses have become a crutch. As I navigated the paths in my softer vision, I found it easier to visualize the steps I need to take to decrease my stress levels in other aspects of my life. This seemed to flow with the assertion that nearsightedness is a message of being afraid to see what’s out there, of pulling with, and to begin reaching out with a clearer purpose and to take risks, as well as to use relaxation techniques that allow “being” more than “ doing”

I found myself using naked vision more and more, during lectures, meetings, and times when I didn’t have a need to be completely focused (i.e. in control) such as hanging out in a cafe or having dinner. Breaking my morning habit of reaching for my glasses has been difficult, but I now trust that no gnomes have moved the coffee in the middle of the night, and I find it easier and easier to delegate my lenses to the realm of something that I need in order to drive, much like my keys, than something I need to cling to all day long.

Just driving through the redwoods felt relaxing, so I parked my car about a half mile away, deciding to walk up to the retreat, do a walking meditation around the prayer wheel, and come back by happy hour. I took my glasses off as I moved along the road, finding my rhythm and feeling my stride. As I crossed a little bridge I noticed how much noise my shoes were making, and I decided to slip them off. I popped them by a tree trunk, putting my car keys and glasses inside, so I wouldn't have to carry anything either. I felt light and easy in the moment.

I have been deeply stressed all month, combined with allergies, and have seen a return of gerd and asthma as a result. "What steps do I need to take for my health?" kept going through my head as I reached the Prayer Wheel. I gripped the handle and began walking, closing my eyes and letting the wheel guide me. I thought about how many feet had stepped on this circle before, how many prayers for peace and to release suffering had been chanted. I noticed the shadows and golden sunlight dancing on my eyelids, as I went slower and slower...

After some time had passed, I felt a deep peace and decided to return to my car. I jauntily set off down the path feeling better than I had in a long time. After a while the path started to veer sharply up, and I came across a gate with a "no trespassing sign." It should say "no stress passing" I thought, realizing right then that I must of taken a wrong turn somewhere. "Okay, " I thought, "here's this adventure," contemplating the day's tarot card. Well, four hours later...

Some who wander actually are lost. I had to laugh at myself, for pretty much I was experiencing my worst nightmare - no idea where I was, barefoot, no glasses, the sun starting to set, starting to get thirsty. And I was fine. Of course, I started to imagine more and more dire situations - by the time I did find the bridge, what if a squirrel had stolen my car keys? I took a deep breath and reminded myself to be calm. I paid attention to the moss under my sore feet, the feel of stepping on soft dead leaves, the quite rustles and inconsistent bird calls. I decided I was on a trust walk and I could trust that I could find my way back home. I turned a corner, and there below me in the blurry distance I could see the bridge. Never have I felt so thankful to slip on my shoes, jingle my keys, tuck my glasses safely into my blouse... And damn, if that wasn't the best sushi I've ever had in my life!

We All Come From the Goddess

2010-07-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

Santa Cruz Astrology: Sun in Leo 2010

2010-07-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Leo 2010

"There are many ways to move forward, but only one way to stand still."-Unknown

Have you noticed all the cosmic disorder between the 2 eclipses? It's felt like a Mercury retro time. We've been going through internet hell at the house, and many of my clients report extremes in communication. Today's seed thought:I allow myself order and routine. Find your rhythm, set your pace, and enjoy this scrumptious day....

Speaking of, Mercury does go retrograde on August 19 through September 12, so you know what to do! Review, review, review, back up those hard drives and bring an extra book to comfortably temper delays.

Saturn enters Libra again after retrograding into Virgo. Relationship is the greatest teacher, so look at who are your lab partners now, and what workshop are you entering?

Mars and Venus join Saturn, so our desires and attractions may feel chaperoned to a certain extent. Buddha says to remember their is always a third person involved, or a third option to your dilemmas.

Eros joins Vesta in Libra reminding you that a healthy sexual relationship nourishes your soul, rather than depleting your energy. Lillith also moves into Libra, promoting empowering, mutually beneficial relationships to occur.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: My little goat friend, you have such a reputation for being selfish, but the truth is you are experiencing your other side. Learn who you are through your relationships. What are your gifts?

Taurus: Luxuriate in the simple pleasures, splurge in intellectual pursuits & invest in your health. What summer workshop class, or lecture will stimulate your higher self? Allow yourself to go there.

Gemini: How can you nurture your communication skills this summer? Maybe a workshop, some short term therapy, or peer counseling? Feed your head and your heart. Explore the gentle power in being vulnerable.

Cancer: Show your love. There is a gentle strength in being vulnerable, and the truth is - you are safe. How are you nurturing your family? How would you like to be nurtured? Cultivate a light heart.

Leo: Happy Birthday, Leo! The sun is shining the love light on your soul’s purpose, allowing you to successfully plan your future as you reflect upon your experience & accumulated wisdom. Purr, purr.

Virgo: Losing faith is the beginning of faith. Eat more soul food, dance a groovy dance, wander the streets at midnight, find your new tribe of fun. Let go of dogma and find heartfelt traditions.

Libra: Your deepest, most meaningful relationships are to be found in your family right now, your lion’s pride is your source of strength. While family betrayals wound the deepest, allow for healing.

Scorpio: Here you are in the valley before attempting your next mountain climb. Review your ambitions, unpack your emotional baggage, and go forth with tools that you know really work. Believe in you.

Sagittarius: “An unexamined life is not worth living.” says Socrates. Be gentle in reviewing your sense of self and rather than wondering what you have done, wonder what you will do next. Take courage.

Capricorn: Part of being head strong is trusting in beginners mind. The truth is you are also heart strong. Your partner is your resource, not your competition. How can you make a win-win situation?

Aquarius: After kissing the fires of desire, you might find yourself retreating to safer waters. What do you need to do in you safe harbor before venturing forth again? New exciting adventures await.

Pisces: Your sailing under different skies, looking for new horizons and different shores. Still, it’s time to get rid of that albatross. Let go of your emotional burdens and get ready to live again.

Mooses, Wild Boars, and Camels, Oh My!

2010-07-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Did you know that 80 people a day haven an encounter with a moose in Sweden? Neither did I. There are fences to keep the moose off the highways all along the roads, with many warning signs. indeed, at one Moose Preserve we stopped at, they had graphically illustrated what could happen if you hit a moose with a life sized diorama:

Don't worry, there were live moose at the preseve as well:

As well as goats:

and wild boars:

and later on Öland we saw a herd of camel:

but I did think the moose was flirting with my Mom:

Don't you?

Photos by Siv, 2010

Kingdom of Crystal, Part 1

2010-07-16T07:58:00.000-07:00

Thursday and Friday we spent in The Kingdom of Crystal, a region of Sweden famous for the glassworks - blown, etched, molded and recycled! Once over 300 glassblowers had factories here; now there are 16. This was easily the highlight of my trip.

First we stopped for coffee in Växjö, wandering the cobblestone streets and noting the architecture, very traditional, baskets of flowers just bursting with color everywhere, hanging from porches, filling containers, spilling the smell of roses into the streets. The Swedish people take their ice cream very seriously, and everywhere were little stalls selling Glace.

Next we visited Lessebo, where we watched them make hand-made paper from rags and linen, using a huge zinc press to dry the individual sheets. Established in 1693, today an exclusive product mainly used for finer documents, we got to see how they made watermarks and what happened to an unfortunate spider that fell into a vat of soaking paper mush.

This is a tower of glass, filled with bowls, vases, sculptures, and these incredible glass heads, in a range of colors that kept shifting as you walked around the perimeter. It was such a massive piece of art, really impressive, and somehow you just wanted to reach in and see if you could shift one of the pieces, like a giant game of jenga.

We went on the visit Kosta Boda, Orrefors, Mäleräs, Pukeburg, which has an outstanding school of design, and ended in Kalmar. We stopped for lunch for a little bakery outside of Mats Jonasson glassworks for shrimp sandwhiches and the ubiquitous coffee seemingly served everwhere.

Photos by Siv, 2010

More Adventures in Sweden

2010-07-15T13:42:00.000-07:00

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Wednesday morning we woke up around 7am, had breakfast, and were picked up in a Volvo limo to go out to the factory. There we ran into our new friends, Jan and Merv, along with 22 other new car owners, all a part of their Overseas Deliver Program.

After signing papers and test driving my Mom's new Volvo C30 - a tiny car, in a beautiful blue-grey, with no trunk space to speak of - we got lunch and a tour of the factory. It was fascinating - huge robots were picking up the components, sparks from the welding a flying, with a preciceness and speed that almost spooky. We literally saw from start to finish, beginning with the rolls of steel and the steel presses, and it was clear from the tour guides voice just how much pride she had in her company.

In the afternoon we drove down to Kungsbacka, after getting lost driving back into Göteborg. This became our theme over the next few days: something between the 9 hour difference, jetlag, the sun not seeming to be in the right place in the sky, and the distinct lack of signage along the roads led us in many a circle. Indeed, out motto became "We came, We saw, We turned around."

We went to the market and picked up some dinner supplies, before settling into our hotel room. Around 2 am a huge fight broke outside the hotel, with a dozen or so youths fully in a fist fight, breaking bottles and plant containers in the process. Three police cars finally showed up, arresting the lot. So much for a quiet night....

Map by Google; Photos by Siv 2010

Dreams are Whispers

2010-07-15T09:51:00.000-07:00

Adventures in Sweden: Land of the Midnight Sun

2010-07-11T11:30:00.000-07:00

I've just returned from spending 11 days touring the southern parts of Sweden, the Spruce-Moose biome. My Mom bought a Volvo through their Overseas Deliver Program, where they pay your airfare if you pick up the car and ship it yourself. Included in the deal was a free night at the Risson Blu hotel in Göteborg, lunch and a tour of the factory. Whatta bargain!

We left from Monterey on a Monday morning, our first plane delayed by fog. We got to hang out at the SAS lounge in San Francisco, where we met Merv and Jan, also new Volvo owners on their way to pick up their new car. Merv, recently retired, had been a pharmacist for 50 years. When I told him I was a Certified Hypnotherapist and working on my PhD in Holistic Healing, he said, "Oh, that's good, because you know, medications are what make people sick!"

We flew in to Chicago, then to Copenhagen, finally ending in Göteborg close to 24 hours later. I was exhausted. As my brother says, flying is like a 24 hour prison sentence. After checking in to our hotel, we went to the train station to exchange money. I was surprised that the Swedes are still using kronor, as I'd assumed they'd switched to Euros.

The Swedes are very ecological minded, evidenced by needing to insert the hotel key in a slot to turn anything electronic on, ensuring that the lights would be turned out upon exiting. The toilets had a half flush and full flush; and every hotel had instructions on how to reuse your towel in order to save on laundry. There was a disappointing amount of litter in the streets, and not all the towns had public trash cans. we made a point of picking up 7 pieces of trash everyday. Another interesting I thought was that in one market the shopping carts were chained together, and you had to insert 5 kronor to detach one, which was returned once you put the cart back.

We found a random restaurant where I had a ceasar salad, a little overpowered by anchovies, and a nice dry white wine from Italy. We went back to our room prepared to get some rest, but so began my week of not sleeping. It was really hot (apparently the hottest summer in some ten years) and while we'd pulled the curtains, it was so light I kept waking up. Pretty much the sun would set around 11pm and sunrise was at 4:30am, but it didn't really get dark, there was always a greenish cast to the sky. The more North we traveled, the shorter the nights became.

It was an interesting start to our adventures through Sweden...

All photos by Siv; Flag sketch by Kayla: Midnight Sun Image from Google

Fabulous

2010-06-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Cancer

2010-06-19T06:19:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Cancer 2010

"If you want to sing out, sing out..." - Cat Stevens

There is a grand cross in the sky, what with Jupiter and Uranus in Aries opposing Saturn, squaring Pluto and the Sun. Now is the time to liberate yourself from feeling crucified. All the places your heart feels ripped in two, all the ways your mind feels divided, are crying out for integration and metamorphosis to a new state of being. Just as the two crossed sticks make a structure for a kite, how can you structure your life now in order to fly more free?

We'll be experiencing solar flares all month, so back up your computers, buy batteries, and stock up the pantry. Brown outs are to be expected - be prepared. What is flaring in your soul right now? Is it a flash in the pan or the sustaining hearth? Encourage your hopes and let go of fear. Evolution and revolution are calling humanity reach out to your friends, neighbors, and community. Cultivate peace-sing more, even if you're out feeling out of tune.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Aries: Still haven't found what you're looking for? Try looking within. Hope and optimism are waiting for you to rekindle your desires, now that the mourning is done. Yes, Aries, you are done. Good job!

Taurus: It's time to establish a firm will and a faith in yourself, guided by reason, love and justice. Grab the proverbial bull by the horns and get ready to take a leap. Balance is key, both diet and checkbook.

Gemini: How can you nurture your communication skills this summer? Maybe a workshop, some short term therapy, or peer counseling? Feed your head and your heart. Explore the gentle power in being vulnerable.

Cancer: Happy Birthday! Like all crabs cracking out their shells, your past restrictions are falling away, leaving you feeling a little raw. No need to act crabby - ask for healing space. Remember sunscreen.

Leo: When it's good, it's really, really good, and when it's bad, create change. Really listen to your gut instincts and act. Change your sheets, change your mind, change your underwear, change your life.

Virgo: Yes, your buttons are being pushed, but how else do you start a car? There's always a fine line between being annoyed and being amused - choose to be amused. Laughter is the best medicine, Virgo.

Libra: Taking the time to groom yourself, oh lovely Libra? Shaking out that mane and primping up that tail? All the self care is really paying off, bask in the attention. You are a role model and inspiration.

Scorpio: Shining the light down into the basement of your soul, oh deep Scorpio? Let the love light reveal a few simple steps to restore your foundation. Remember, you are here to give and to receive love.

Sagittarius: What's it going to be, Sag? You can do anything you want right now, just put your heart and love into it. How will you improve your life? Better nutrition? More fun? Dancing under the stars? Do it all.

Capricorn: Relationship is the greatest teacher, so take a moment to write thank you notes to all your past loves for all the lessons received. Bring an apple to your true love now, and bless this workshop.

Aquarius: When you wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and say, "Hey, Good Looking"! Your ruling planet will be gifting you with deep flashes of insight to activate your self-actualization. Go with it!

Pisces: Doubt your doubts, not the love. The information age goes by so quickly it's easy to feel lost on the internet highway. Step away from technology and immerse yourself in nature. The stars are calling you.

The Nature of Your Song

2010-06-15T09:49:00.000-07:00

Brotherhood of Light Egyptian Tarot

2010-06-10T15:18:00.000-07:00

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance. -Oscar Wilde

US Games Systems has just released a color deck of The Brotherhood of Light Egyptian Tarot Cards. These cards are simply rich - from the mythology, symbols, astrology, Hebrew characters, numerology and the teachings of the Kabbalah - each one is a feast to feed one's mind and soul. A companion deck to The Sacred Tarot by C.C. Zain, the original 1936 black and white images were first designed by Gloria Beresford, then redesigned in 2009 by Vicki Brewer as full-color Egyptian tarot cards.

I recently received the deck with it's little instruction booklet, and just the key on the front makes me giddy. The circle of the key is divided into the four suits with the numbers 1 through 9 corresponding to planetary positions within constellations. For example, 3 of Swords (or Trey of swords, I love the old-fashioned aspects of this deck) shows Mercury, Capricorn and Virgo. The post of the key contain the major arcana, while the teeth contain the court cards. Interesting, as in all my Santa Cruz tarot classes, students tend to get stuck when studying the court cards, which in some way once understood, allow for the tumble and click in unlocking the wisdom of the tarot.

Rather than going through the suits, the section on the minor arcana goes through the numbers, associating each with a particular planet, giving the divinatory significance of each card as well as its' inner interpretation. Following the Hermetic tradition, the cards an integral part of an internally consistent exposition of occult sciences. Astrology, alchemy and magic are continuously expressed through color, symbol and glyph. Each card is actually a cartouche, containing a message for the seeker. While I am well versed in Greek and Roman mythology, these cards had me seeking way back in my mind, as I remember adoring Egyptian culture as a kid. I'm lucky to have had the opportunity to travel in Tunisia and Northern Africa, but Egypt is still on my list of places to visit this lifetime.

"What the tarot can be made to reveal is limited only by the capacity for understanding of the person using it " (from the booklet). I have been really enjoying playing with this new deck as it synthesized my own interests in both tarot and astrology. Having the planets and signs expressed on each card gives me instant access to more information that I can share with my client.

It's been 23 years now that I have been courting the cards. Receiving The Brotherhood of Light Egyptian Tarot Cards cards reminds me that the Tarot itself is a lifetime romance...

Co-Creator

2010-05-28T09:47:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Gemini 2010

2010-05-19T10:08:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Gemini 2010

That Which You Seek is Seeking You - Rumi

Mercury shoots out from the sky like a sling shot, as all that pent up communication comes spewing forth. Time to focus on the bull's eye and keep your eyes on the prize. Take good aim, and remember to actually follow through on your own good ideas. Hesitate, and you'll fall up short. It's the way to self-actualization.

We experience a break from the norm as Uranus enters Aries for the first time since 1935, and new beginnings about as Jupiter starts it's own 12 year cycle in Aries. It is a time of enthusiasm and courage, a time to create what is uniquely yours, and to shine your own inspiration.

Saturn in Libra opposes Jupiter, which compels us to expand our wings or contract in fear - which do you choose? We shift from wallowing to willing, doing whatever we can. Self control is the key as cardinal energies always create progress. The energy may seem arduous, and indeed, we are being tested in terms of the spiritual paths we have always relied upon. Open yourself up to new teachers, new teachings. Sincerely ask, and you will receive.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Aries: Roaring out your essential truths, oh fiery one? As Mars move through Leo into Virgo this month, notice where your warrior self can lay down sword and shield. Study Peace, starting with family.

Taurus: Venus in Gemini is can have you feeling tested, having you flippy flop more than a cow swishing flies with it's tail. Notice how the blossoms are flirting with the bees, and invite yourself to drift.

Gemini: Mercury moves out of it's shadow, and you find yourself in the radiant light of your own being again, feeling grounded, energized and reconnected with friends and family. Happiest of re-birthdays.

Cancer: Now is the time to develop your own philosophy as to what truly nourishes you, body and soul. Develop practices that incorporates all your good ideas, from getting massage to eating organic. Try yoga.

Leo: It's okay to change your mind, it won't break, Leo. Allow any competitiveness to be channeled into the team spirit instead of picking any fights. Where would like to improve your network of friendships?

Virgo: Chiron moves into Pisces for the next 8 years, giving you plenty of time to analyze the foundations of your wounding in concepts of faith and fidelity. Trust yourself, trust your gut, trust the love.

Libra: Venus in Cancer encourages you to beautify your home and garden. What will add some romantic sparkle? Mars will be conjunct Saturn this summer, bringing energy for all relationships to find balance.

Scorpio: "As a child of the Universe, think of the size of your playground." -Helen c. Casteguay. Welcome to the teeter-totter, Scorpio, remember to play fair and take turns, as Pluto squares the major players.

Sagittarius: Jupiter in Aries starts a brand new twelve year cycle. Think back to 1998 - what changed, what stayed the same? Now is the time to spread the seeds that will reach fruition as you mature in spirit.

Capricorn: Remember your abilities as an instructor, let go of being the task master. Your life is improving, relationships are getting better, and business is on the rise. How can you structure more flexibility?

Aquarius: Chase fireflies and make wishes on the brightest stars. Everything changes in the twinkling of an eye. After kissing the fires of desire, are you retreating to a safer shore? Get ready to take a risk.

Pisces: As dreamy Neptune retrogrades through innovative Aquarius, now is the time to review your most heart felt dreams and desires, my Pisces friend. What liberates you? Where do you feel the free? Go there.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and celestial events.

Walk in Beauty

2010-04-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

Du Whacky Du - The Morgan's Tarot Review

2010-04-28T12:41:00.000-07:00

The Morgan's Tarot was created by Morgan Robbins, illustrated by Darshan Chorpash and was first published in 1970 by US Games Systems. Three reprints later, this fascinating deck is eclectic and entertaining, whimsical and always deeply thought provoking.

Morgan's Tarot is a black and white deck with simple line drawings, clearly inspired by the '60s, with the images ranging from turtledoves nesting on a branch to comets shooting through outer space, from three eyed aliens to completely unknown objects. There are 88 cards instead of the traditional 78, and indeed seemed at first to be completely random and quite removed from the numerology, suits and archetypal symbolism of the Tarot. Even the order in the booklet was completely random.

The accompanying booklet was a wealth of gems. The card descriptions were only a few sentences each, but added meaning, humor and charm to each of the cards. Another tarot reader that I know said she numbered the cards and the descriptions, in order to make it easier to look them up. This inspired me to not just number the cards, but to color them as well.

Three months ago I received a review copy in the mail, coinciding with the beginning of my 10 week class, Journey through the Tarot. I made it my goal to finish the deck by the end of the class - quite a daunting task, since it took me almost 4 years to color the Daughters of the Moon deck. However, I used watercolor for the DOM deck, and for the Morgan's tarot I ended up using quite a variety of media that led to more spontaneity with each individual card.

The cards are printed on quality card stock with a glossy coating. I ended up using a pack of chisel point permanent markers to color the images, which was really fun as the thick tips had me coloring outside the lines quite frequently. I tend to be very fastidious in my artwork, and this was so liberating to be quick and downright sloppy at times. I was limited in my palette of eight colors, which let me have more fluorescent pink skies than I'd usually allow myself.

The tarot is a system, and the way for me to learn a new deck is to apply the system. I lay out all 78 cards of the Rider-Waite deck on my living room floor in order, then lay down each of the Morgan's Tarot on top. I painted the outside edges with acrylic paints, corresponding to each of the suits (Earth, Water, Fire, Air & Aether), using Green, Blue, Red, Yellow and Purple. Having 10 extra cards meant 2 extra for each of the suits, so each one got a Zero card and the royals were numbered 11 through 15.

Now the fun began. For each card I had cut out the meaning from the booklet and glued it around the edges, eliminating the need to "go look it up". I added a variety of fine glitters, bejeweled embellishments, and tiny stickers in order to really personalize each one. The colors began to pop and indeed, the deck is considerably thicker than originally and can no longer fit in the box. To end, I colored all the backs with a purple acrylic with a breath of silver glitter. I did three layers of an acrylic clear coat on each side, waiting 24 hours to dry between coats.

To me, this is what Tarot is all about. I truly PLAYED with the Morgan's Tarot, infusing my own color, meaning and energy into each card. The more I played, the more I appreciated the simple interpretations of life's complexities, the gentle reminders to laugh at life for all of it's conundrums. While seemingly so disparate from the traditional tarot, the Morgan's Tarot is a classic in it's own right.

Blessed Be.

Interview on KZSC

2010-04-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

Awright, let's see if we can get this to work, considering Mercury is retrograde. My good friend Chip kindly recorded my radio interview on Monday night with Kai and Richard on Closet Free Radio, KZSC 88.1 here in Santa Cruz.

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AstroChat for Sun in Taurus 2010

2010-04-19T10:22:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Taurus 2010

Ka-Bump! Did you feel that? We all did. Earthquakes and Fireballs and Tsunamis, oh my! Pluto in Capricorn retrograded in early April and the earth shook herself awake. It’s spring! Wake up and smell the pheromones. We tune into each other and seek out what will help us evolve further.

Mercury goes direct May 10th, and the feeling of being a knife held to the grindstone eases up. Notice where you are honed, razor sharp, and choose scintillating wit over sarcasm.

Saturn eases off of Pluto but opposes Uranus again- anxiety is quelled when you merge your desire for independence with your need for organization. There is freedom in structure, so pull out your calendar and start planning. Then you will feel you have plenty of time for everything.

Chiron and Neptune square Juno in Gemini- old wounds dissolve like stitches. Then Vesta has us balancing marital time with girl time. And for the single folk, don’t be bothered by the moths who are attracted to your brightness. Your twin flame is out there, so get ready for change.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? For a personal reading contact www.KaylaGarnetRose.com.

Aries: Does life feel like a seesaw? Mars squaring Venus can lead to a Push-me/Pull-You feeling for you right now, Aries. Break the tension with genuine laughter to get what you’re really after.

Taurus: Happy Birthday Taurus! What are you contemplating now? Who is your mirror? Gracious Venus is beckoning, so pay attention. When you know what you feel you will show what you know. Ponder this.

Gemini: Like an ice skater moving backwards, leaping and twisting at high speeds, astonish everyone with your grace under pressure, my Gemini friend. All will be easier, so put some wow into your now.

Cancer: Feeling cramped? Time to clean up your space. Sometimes the deepest transformations can be the simplest. Remember to cherish and love by touch everything you dust, polish, or throw away.

Leo: What happens when Fixed Fire is in Fixed Earth? Think of hearths, fire rings, how your body is a physical vessel for your sacred flame. Ready to get out of the kiln? Kindness is the best glaze.

Virgo: Still not done talking? Keep on speaking your truth, Virgo, it gets easier all the time All this emotional healing has cleared the air, now the challenge is to find the sacred in the mundane.

Libra: Where are you, Libra? Come back to earth, stop and actually smell the roses, get out of your head and into your body. Don’t have a leg to stand on? Try some acupuncture to release stagnation.

Scorpio: Pluto conjunct Ceres has you enjoying Persephone’s return while examining your own childhood beliefs and capacity to self-nurture. Nourish yourself with plenty of mother earth’s freshness.

Sagittarius: What is your concept of faith, Sag? How can you build up more faith in yourself, your friends, your resources? Activate your highest wisdom and take an esoteric class or two. Be surprised.

Capricorn: Reviewing your health, weight, and energy level? What are your goals for more stamina, endurance, and vitality? While the mountain top has the view, enjoy the moments in the peaceful valley.

Aquarius: Feeling shook up? Earthquakes abound, in more ways than one. Uranus opposing Saturn has some Aquarians feeling emotionally trapped, others evolving new structures. What have you decided?

Pisces: Wondering just what will feed your soul? We’re all curious as to what you will do next. Tension with your marriage can be placated by paying more attention to old patterns. Mother knows best.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and astrological events.

All Healing

2010-04-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

No Doubt

2010-03-29T06:41:00.000-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Aries 2010

2010-03-18T20:09:00.001-07:00

AstroChat for Sun in Aries 2010

Mars direct in Leo, and we now have some forward motion in actualizing our deeper desires. In the Osho Zen tarot, an old lion is seen wearing a sheepskin, and is surrounded by sheep. The story goes that another lion came to bring him to a reflective pond, where then he could see his true nature. What past conditioning are you shedding now?

Mercury goes retrograde starting April 18 in Taurus. It’s an especially good time to review your health, your home, and your business. Saturn has moved back into Virgo, another health conscious sign. Allow yourself to become the observer, and gently notice what small adjustments you can make. What will rejuvenate you now?

Pluto is also retro, in lovely Capricorn, so it’s a great time to review your long term ambitions. Pluto rules death, so take a look at your life - have you set up a will, a trust, durable power of attorney? Hire a professional -You’ll feel much better and be able to focus on living again.

Aries: Happy Birthday! This is your year to shine, my Aries friend, so polish up your act, from head to toes. You are mystical and magical, beautiful beyond measure. Show your smile this month.

Taurus: Your planet Venus is in its own sign, allowing grace and beauty to dominate your life. Let all your communications be love notes and notice the ease it creates. Get ready for rebirth.

Gemini: Curl your tongue seven times in your mouth before you speak. Review your communications thoroughly and notice diamonds and pearls falling from your sweet lips inspiring all around you.

Cancer: Where are you feeling taxed or overburdened? Remember you don’t have to do it all by yourself. There are plenty of people to help you, so don’t be shy is asking for what you need right now.

Leo: You are important, more so than you may realize Your influence touches the hearts of many, so vibrate with your highest essence. Try some aromatherapy, join a choir, lift your spirits daily.

Virgo: Analyze the ways that you wound and have been wounded in the past. As you map your mind-heart connection, you’ll make better choices this summer. Luxuriate in wholehearted love and kindness.

Libra: We know you love to communicate intellectual ideas & philosophies, but your challenge is to now manifest those ideas into physical form. After weighing your options, your focus is now complete.

Scorpio: Transform your ambitions by asking for MORE than what you need. Allow yourself to receive so much that you can gladly give any excess away. Trust your financial wisdom and live in moderation.

Sagittarius: Let your hope and optimism boil up and spill over into all parts of your life. Travel in your mind as well as in the world as you seek transcendent experiences to further your quest.
Capricorn: Use the power of analysis to structure a more flexible life. You have all the tools you need, so don’t waste time reinventing the wheel. You can do anything you put your mind to, so do it.

Aquarius: Now is the time to inspire conscious compassion by really practicing those random acts of kindness. Who could you surpass? Consider sending love notes to random names in the phone book.
Pisces: Dreaming of a new kind of knowledge, my Pisces friend? Einstein says, “As the circle of light increases, so does the circumference of darkness.” The more you know, the more there is to know.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and astrological events.

Let My Lessons Be Gentle

2010-03-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

Time on My Hands

2010-03-12T20:25:00.000-08:00

I'm listening to live music while catching up on blogs, enjoying myself tremendously despite the deluge of rain. It's Friday night, kid's at the skating rink, housemate is on a phone date with her distant beau, and time is on my hands. Time, sweet time. I cringe when I hear the expression "just killing time” because what could be more precious? Even in the luxury of being bored lies the richness of time, invaluable and always meant to be spent wisely. Time is not money - Time is infinitely more valuable, a currency beyond measure.

I finished my five year contract as a financial analyst and medical billing specialist. I have the rest of the month to tie-up loose ends, file a few claims and complete updating a manual. Like any good scout, I know I am leaving this place in a better state when I entered, but I also have a humble enough ego to know that it truly will continue without me.

This work has been my solace over the last half a decade - I broke up with my partner almost seven years ago, and there has been a sanctuary in filing, in the creation of systems, that soothed my troubled soul and grieving heart many a night and many a weekend. I have run away from the loneliness of an empty house to the soothing hum of the old computer, the little space heater, and the work helped fill the holes in my time by allowing me to feel useful and productive, if only for a little while. Work comforted me, but I now feel whole and healed, ready to move out of the being comforted zone.

I am equal parts nervous and excited to be giving up my part time job, my steady stream of income small as my paycheck may be. But the lure of the luxury of time impels me forward, and all the energy I put into promoting another business, I know I am now channeling into my own. I have loved being at home, in the garden, but as I recently heard somewhere, "my aloneness has helped me to realize that I need other people." I'm comfortable being by myself, but with the budding spring I find myself being more social again.

My housemate graduates in the summer, and my current intention is to create enough income to not solicit anyone new. I spent almost ten days by myself over the winter break, what with my kid visiting her grandparents in Idaho and my housemate visiting aforementioned beau in New York City. Just as I ended on a high note in my work, I’d like to end my current living situation well. I can’t imagine anyone better to live with, but I'm also ready for my lover to move in, to share sweet time and space. It’s a lot of change and a leap of faith for me, but it feels like the same quantum shift I experienced between high school and college, and again in my mid 20’s when I went from working retail to being an owner of my own retail store. A shift has occurred and I find myself loving my life and feeling a deep peace.

In this moment, time is on hands as my fingers tap the keyboard, and I feel so free to do whatever I want to, whatever passion pleases me. I am enjoying watching the couples dance as the waitresses weave in and out of the tables. I feel a deep appreciation for my inner silence which is in direct contrast to the blare of music overshadowed by people's conversations. I am contented and peaceful, full of hope and optimism, eager to see just what will happen next...

"Time is on my side, oh yes it is..."

My Age

2010-03-08T09:31:00.000-08:00

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Great Pleasure

2010-03-01T09:13:00.000-08:00

Altar-A-GoGo
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Collages for recycled altoid boxes
2.00" x 3.5"
copyright kgr 2002

Moon Blessings

2010-02-22T09:04:00.000-08:00

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Hand watercolored design
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AstroChat for Sun in Pisces 2010

2010-02-20T10:41:00.000-08:00

AstroChat for Sun in Pisces 2010

The best time to plant a tree is twenty years ago. The next best time is now.—Chinese Proverb

The first half of the month is mutable and shifting, the second half more fiery and tense. So many planets are either in Pisces or Aries that we are all really experience a combination of fire and water in our lives. Are you just blowing off steam right now, or powering up a locomotive? In the tarot, this is the Temperance card, the combining of the elements to create an alchemical whole. Notice your emotions, all that you wish for, all you would ask the genie after rubbing the lamp. Now notice your energy, your fiery power, and ask yourself, "What will I do?"

Changing your wishful thinking into willful thinking takes courage, consciousness and intent. With Mars turning direct in Leo, this is the perfect time to work with a coach right now, whether a therapist, fitness trainer or peer counselor. Writing down your goal or verbally stating it to another keeps you accountable and reinforces your deeper motivations - the truth is, the only thing holding you back is you, so learn to get out of your own way.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

- Max Ehrmann

Aries: Spring has sprung and all that wound up, pent up tension is ready to be released, oh Aries. What will you do to channel your desires so you don't implode? Turn your breakdowns into breakthroughs and discover a whole new level of sustainable energy.

Taurus: Time to love yourself, Taurus, but really love yourself, from the tips of your toes to the roots of your hair. Walk, move, dance, sing - now is the time to frolic in the fields and bask in the sun. You are blossoming before my very eyes.

Gemini: After conveying your emotions, new seed thoughts will emerge mid month. Ignite the fires of your mind, communicate clearly, and always coat your words with honey instead of vinegar. Fresh ideas to promote your well being are streaming towards you now.

Cancer: Moving from harmonious Pisces into fiery Aries can be as challenging as it is fun. Allow yourself to move from compassion to passion, and discover new emotional depths by inviting intimacy. There is great strength in vulnerability, and the truth is, you are always safe.

Leo: After carrying the whole world on your shoulders, now is the time to put down other people's burdens, dear Leo, and let yourself be more self focused. Take pride in your appearance, groom that mane, and roar when necessary. Or you can choose to purr...

Virgo: Watch what you ask for - you might get it! After taking a gamble, it's time to assess whether it was worth the risk or time to nip it in the bud. When courting the wild card, don't be surprised to b left with the joker.

Libra: Stop worrying about other people and what they might think. You are brilliant, talented, gorgeous and fabulous and it serves no one when you hide your love light. Shine like the gold star you are and your twin flame will magically appear.

Scorpio: "The slower the change, the more real and long lasting the effects" is your mantra for this month, oh Scorpio. Everything is going as planned, things are falling into place, and the universe is unfolding as it should. Try not to get bored with perfection.

Sagittarius: Expand your concepts of faith, and in particular in having faith in yourself and your actions. Seeds planted long ago in your heart and just now beginning to unfold. Nourish your deepest dreams and tend to your emotions gently and deliberately.

Capricorn: In reviewing your past and past relationships, you'll discover a forgotten source of strength that will become important again. Release all feelings of being a victim and step into the power of being your own hero.You have all the resources you need.

Aquarius: Are you singing in the rain? Dancing in the storms? Now is the time to do some serious puddle jumping, my friend, and it would be good to invite some buddies along. Notice what is blooming in your heart and take the time to learn the language of flowers.

Pisces: The Sun is shining on your soul's purpose now,my lovely Pisces, so take a moment or two to reflect upon your time here on planet earth, and what it is you really want to accomplish. The more you focus, the more it will all flow.

Wondering just what’s in the stars for you? Kayla Garnet Rose, CHT is available for in person, phone or online astrology readings . Please join me on FaceBook or Twitter for daily affirmations, inspirations, and astrological events.

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